Hey blog, it's me again. Sighs, the emotional wreck in me is here again. Recently, i have been feeling so lethargic, so tired, as if no amount of sleep can bring me back to fairly energetic levels. And i've been trying to coop myself at home quite alot, like when Keith asked me to go out, i find myself looking for reasons to stay at home. I told him about it, not because of anything, but more importantly, i don't want him to feel like i don't wanna go out with him. I think it's just me. Being really selfish, rotten and ..

I think it's me, just wanting to stay in this house, revel in memories of my grandparents lest i forget them.. it's just me, leaving myself succumbed to the misery of loss..

i need to get better soon. i need to stop letting myself get too attached to this emotion. I need to know that this feeling of pain hurts every fucking big deal, and i have to get away from it.

Time, why does time seem to pass so slowly?

I'm gonna go out today. Keith asked me out for cycling. I am gonna go cycle happily, and try to lock some emotions in this tiny cage found in the deepest corner of the heart.

Go Eileen Go!