EILEEN LOO YI ZHEN;
Saturday, April 26, 2008
7:45 AM
Chasing Cars
Chasing Cars
Hmmms, this is not really a song that i always listen to, but, i really love the lyrics. Simple, yet beautiful.
Chasing Cars:
We'll do it all, everything, on our own.
We don't need anything, or anyone.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Forget what we're told, before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
Let's waste time, chasing cars, around our heads.
I need your grace to remind me, to find my own.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Forget what we're told, before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
All that I am, all that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where, confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Tired ; YAWNS
Chasing Cars:
We'll do it all, everything, on our own.
We don't need anything, or anyone.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words, are said too much, they're not enough.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Forget what we're told, before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
Let's waste time, chasing cars, around our heads.
I need your grace to remind me, to find my own.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Forget what we're told, before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
All that I am, all that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where, confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all.
If I lay here, if I just lay here
Would you lie with me, and just forget the world.
Tired ; YAWNS
3:40 AM
Late
Late
Well, firstly, i wanna apologise for the late update. This week had been rather crazy, me coming home late almost everyday, rushing tutorials, mugging my head off, and sleeping at unusual times. Because of that, i was unable to blog, and because of that, i havent seen my parents for some days already. Tomorrow, i've gotta teach tuition again, and im so tired, but whatever it is, im not gonna give up teaching (:
Anyway, i went to the chinese garden and this new place , i dont know where but its a small mountain. Forgot the name already. It's a fun day! After that, we took the bus to Bt Merah, then took 5 to far East to meet up with Karen. After lunch at KFC, we went walking around, window shopping, it's so tiring, but i wanna thank Karen for accompanying me today! It's been so long since we last caught up, and phew, luckily, we didnt lose touch.
Oh, i bought a water bottle at Adidas today. It's orange red in colour, i love it even though its not green. Well, i gotta go now, i cant talk now, i mean i cant type much. Have to rest, i think im feeling uneasy, queasy.
Perhaps im ill, so off i'll go, let the pictures do the talking yeahs? Goodbye!
A picture long overdue - the 2 funniest, craziest and well, lamest people, the two besties!
I borrowed this GC from someone for my maths test! there's a message inside!
:D VEGGIE
Small Guilin Mountain, in singapore! its the first time i see this! WOW
Beautiful!
The mountain!
Anyway, i went to the chinese garden and this new place , i dont know where but its a small mountain. Forgot the name already. It's a fun day! After that, we took the bus to Bt Merah, then took 5 to far East to meet up with Karen. After lunch at KFC, we went walking around, window shopping, it's so tiring, but i wanna thank Karen for accompanying me today! It's been so long since we last caught up, and phew, luckily, we didnt lose touch.
Oh, i bought a water bottle at Adidas today. It's orange red in colour, i love it even though its not green. Well, i gotta go now, i cant talk now, i mean i cant type much. Have to rest, i think im feeling uneasy, queasy.
Perhaps im ill, so off i'll go, let the pictures do the talking yeahs? Goodbye!
A picture long overdue - the 2 funniest, craziest and well, lamest people, the two besties!
I borrowed this GC from someone for my maths test! there's a message inside!
:D VEGGIE
Small Guilin Mountain, in singapore! its the first time i see this! WOW
Beautiful!
The mountain!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
6:37 AM
SIGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
SIGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
O-k-a-y-s-
take in a huge breath and go ahead and sigh.
thats exactly what im doing.
Well, i passed my chemistry.
Im so happy! BLEAHS!
I didnt expect myself to pass, and i passed well! i got a B!
Gerda says its good.
YAY! i finally proved her wrong, i did it!
PE today was boring. I was the guinea piggy for the weights lifting thingy, and well, its not that tough, but at least i tried to use my PE time fully. You know, it's really a waste of time not to practice for Nafa, i mean, at least let us do something productive right?
Especially for people like me, who have difficulty even getting a silver.
Anyways, im still not even halfway through the biology test, and im getting so fed up.
I really have no interest in the what nonsense biomolecules.
I love enzymes, but the questions on enzymes seem very difficult.
CT was fun fun fun fun fun fun today. Well, actually, the talks are boring and all, but at least i've got someone to accompany me! Talking about that reminds me of tomorrow's pugi session.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW MAN.
Im so tired. i dont feel like going.
But terrypuppy says i have to go, well, im WEAK thats why.
And i will also go for other reasons.
NOT cuz terrypuppy told me to, so get that right yeahs?
I wanna sleep early tonight.
Im waiting for someone to come online to chat for a little while, then i'll go and sleep.
TIRED TIRED POTATO.
and hey, tomorrow no assembly! Sad man! It'll be some stupid reading programme in the LT. and the Mr Piano there ( i dont know whats his name). Well, he sucks mega time.
Goodbye for now.
Im going to listen to songs!
take in a huge breath and go ahead and sigh.
thats exactly what im doing.
Well, i passed my chemistry.
Im so happy! BLEAHS!
I didnt expect myself to pass, and i passed well! i got a B!
Gerda says its good.
YAY! i finally proved her wrong, i did it!
PE today was boring. I was the guinea piggy for the weights lifting thingy, and well, its not that tough, but at least i tried to use my PE time fully. You know, it's really a waste of time not to practice for Nafa, i mean, at least let us do something productive right?
Especially for people like me, who have difficulty even getting a silver.
Anyways, im still not even halfway through the biology test, and im getting so fed up.
I really have no interest in the what nonsense biomolecules.
I love enzymes, but the questions on enzymes seem very difficult.
CT was fun fun fun fun fun fun today. Well, actually, the talks are boring and all, but at least i've got someone to accompany me! Talking about that reminds me of tomorrow's pugi session.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW MAN.
Im so tired. i dont feel like going.
But terrypuppy says i have to go, well, im WEAK thats why.
And i will also go for other reasons.
NOT cuz terrypuppy told me to, so get that right yeahs?
I wanna sleep early tonight.
Im waiting for someone to come online to chat for a little while, then i'll go and sleep.
TIRED TIRED POTATO.
and hey, tomorrow no assembly! Sad man! It'll be some stupid reading programme in the LT. and the Mr Piano there ( i dont know whats his name). Well, he sucks mega time.
Goodbye for now.
Im going to listen to songs!
Monday, April 21, 2008
6:20 AM
Touched
Touched
It was the first time man! FIRST FIRST TIME. And the songs played were all so nice on those black and white keys. If only i can relive the whole moment of standing there again. I didnt regret it! A pinch on the cheeks, hopefully, can help to return that favour! ;)
Okays, well back to my life. I slept at 230 last night ( or you can call it morning), because i was mugging for biology, and also because i was arranging my papers into my cute GREEN file! I couldnt really concentrate on many things last night.
Didi has fallen ill with a disease. And im so worried for him! I wish he can get well soon, because it pains me to see him burdened. So, im trying to be very nice to him, which is not what i'll usually do as he is so mischievous! GET WELL SOON DIDI! :DDD
And then we had lessons today. The lectures were boring because i was feeling so tired. And not just that, today, for chemistry lecture, we started on energetics, and the lecture was given by GERDA HUANG. Dang. She is really ridiculous, she can like teach and joke at the same time, and usually her jokes are not even funny! The worse part? she laughs at her own cold, lame jokes.
Oh no, you've not reached the worse part. The worse part is that i'll be having 2 hours of chemistry lecture with her tomorrow. Oh god save me! And im so scared, still thinking if i passed my chemistry test. Many people passed, i really wanna pass so that well, so that Gerda wont look down on me!
Oh, on Saturday, like i said, it was college day, and i had to take the MRT to school from the interchange. I didnt know how to walk, so Gi-ant walked me to school. thank you so much! Why am i mentioning this? oh, i just have to put it down so as to let him know, i havent forgotten! bleahs!
Man people have started to ask em who Veggie is. So my reply to them will be, " Ask me no questions, and i shall tell you no lies."
Simple as that. Get that into your pea brains, people? (: Joking!
Anyway, im going to have to go off very soon, and oh, did i mention that Pugilistic was scary today? REALLY DAMN SCARY. I was freaked out. The instructor was so mean today, we did so many things, and he tested our stances and moves to see if we're able to do it right. He pulled my fist and i fell, lol. But i dont care. training may be hard, because im not fit, but it doesnt matter, im just gonna stay in there and persevere, like what Terry Fox did in his marathon of hope ( well, this is starting to sound like my PI!)
Im going to bathe, then study then sleep. or sleep then study. depends.
Utterly touched. Got my rainbow, and was being served with the sweetest music in my life.
THANK YOU
Pictures of the day:
lol, i stuffed all my papers into an old file, and its about to burst.
I was giving those kids tuition when they asked if i've had my lunch. When i said no, they immediately pulled out two sweet from their pockets and gave them to me. Awww man, how sweeeet!
Ellene, hui ting, Gavin. May we continue to stay in touch,
CUTE CUTE CUTE. white man!
The first transparent folder of my file.
And i;ve already stuck post-its on it,
Bleahs.
Anyway, pink socks tomorrow.
BRIGHT HOT PINK.
Okays, well back to my life. I slept at 230 last night ( or you can call it morning), because i was mugging for biology, and also because i was arranging my papers into my cute GREEN file! I couldnt really concentrate on many things last night.
Didi has fallen ill with a disease. And im so worried for him! I wish he can get well soon, because it pains me to see him burdened. So, im trying to be very nice to him, which is not what i'll usually do as he is so mischievous! GET WELL SOON DIDI! :DDD
And then we had lessons today. The lectures were boring because i was feeling so tired. And not just that, today, for chemistry lecture, we started on energetics, and the lecture was given by GERDA HUANG. Dang. She is really ridiculous, she can like teach and joke at the same time, and usually her jokes are not even funny! The worse part? she laughs at her own cold, lame jokes.
Oh no, you've not reached the worse part. The worse part is that i'll be having 2 hours of chemistry lecture with her tomorrow. Oh god save me! And im so scared, still thinking if i passed my chemistry test. Many people passed, i really wanna pass so that well, so that Gerda wont look down on me!
Oh, on Saturday, like i said, it was college day, and i had to take the MRT to school from the interchange. I didnt know how to walk, so Gi-ant walked me to school. thank you so much! Why am i mentioning this? oh, i just have to put it down so as to let him know, i havent forgotten! bleahs!
Man people have started to ask em who Veggie is. So my reply to them will be, " Ask me no questions, and i shall tell you no lies."
Simple as that. Get that into your pea brains, people? (: Joking!
Anyway, im going to have to go off very soon, and oh, did i mention that Pugilistic was scary today? REALLY DAMN SCARY. I was freaked out. The instructor was so mean today, we did so many things, and he tested our stances and moves to see if we're able to do it right. He pulled my fist and i fell, lol. But i dont care. training may be hard, because im not fit, but it doesnt matter, im just gonna stay in there and persevere, like what Terry Fox did in his marathon of hope ( well, this is starting to sound like my PI!)
Im going to bathe, then study then sleep. or sleep then study. depends.
Utterly touched. Got my rainbow, and was being served with the sweetest music in my life.
THANK YOU
Pictures of the day:
lol, i stuffed all my papers into an old file, and its about to burst.
I was giving those kids tuition when they asked if i've had my lunch. When i said no, they immediately pulled out two sweet from their pockets and gave them to me. Awww man, how sweeeet!
Ellene, hui ting, Gavin. May we continue to stay in touch,
CUTE CUTE CUTE. white man!
The first transparent folder of my file.
And i;ve already stuck post-its on it,
Bleahs.
Anyway, pink socks tomorrow.
BRIGHT HOT PINK.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
10:20 AM
a simple poem
a simple poem
Here's a simple poem to illustrate how i feel today. i wrote it myself okay!
Today is a good day
i wish I could share
I feel confident in a new way
and my emotions i can finally bare
inner demons i am starting to slay
insecurity is the face in which I stare
dont take me down, please take me away
down that path again I dont dare
new reason to live and for it I will pay
just open your arms, let me know that you care
from your caring touch I will never stray
just stay by my side so I know that you're there.
How is it? lol, i dont know. sudden inspiration, but right now, im going to potato. so, the picture below hahas. goodnight potatoes of the internet.
Today is a good day
i wish I could share
I feel confident in a new way
and my emotions i can finally bare
inner demons i am starting to slay
insecurity is the face in which I stare
dont take me down, please take me away
down that path again I dont dare
new reason to live and for it I will pay
just open your arms, let me know that you care
from your caring touch I will never stray
just stay by my side so I know that you're there.
How is it? lol, i dont know. sudden inspiration, but right now, im going to potato. so, the picture below hahas. goodnight potatoes of the internet.
7:00 AM
memorable day with IYC - aka Vegieg
memorable day with IYC - aka Vegieg
Hellos there! yesterday was not a good day, but today is! I went back to NYJC for the college day, and well, we didnt do anything, we just stood there so that we can get to write something in our SGC. So, thats about it. then the other pugi guys went to play basketball, and then we went for lunch together. I didnt eat much, just shared a plate of carrot cake with gavin, ( luckily i didnt pay for it! Cuz the carrot cake is like -.-) , and then the other guys went to drink beer. I was going to go home with Terrypuppy ( aka Terence) and Gavin. But then terrypuppy bullied me along the way so i didnt take the bus with him. He didnt give me his lollipop ( hahas), and it's okay, but then he purposely licked it infront of me and all that. So, he took 22 with gavin, and because he didnt have anyone to bring him to take the 60 bus to the interchange, so he got lost. see, im indispensable. Actually, i think, he didnt get lost, but he just didnt know how to get home and his daddy had to fetch him home. HAHA. I went out with Veggie today. It was so spontaneous! We were just in the MRT, and then we suddenly saw chinese Garden, and then Veggie, being the nice guy, took me there just for fun. We saw many things! It's such a memorable and wonderful experience, took my mind off quite a load of things! Felt so relazed and happy! We joked around, and saw carps, lizards and tortoises! And we even saw a turtle giving birth! Veggie was feeling quite sad for the turtle because alot of people were staring at it, and it's stressful to give birth while people are staring at you, so he told me not to look at it. I think i'll go back there and look for the eggs someday! That place's just so serene and quiet and peaceful and.. happy. Im feeling so happy! i took the MRT with Veggie, and then we took the LRT! My first time! It's not that different compared to thr MRT, just smaller(: Hmm, i've got some pictures, so well here ya go. im tired, yawns yawns.
lol, sorry lahs, bad attempt at editing, but well, hahas, i love it.
( sorry veggie, i did a lousy job!)
A random picture, taken at the chinese garden(:
Confucius? hahas, at the chinese garden
Carps, lovely, too bad i didnt get to feed it!
The lake at chinese garden, or is it japanese garden?
the same lake, just a different angle ( im not a good photographer!)
The sun as seen from the west, so beautiful i wish i could have it!
the entrance!
My first time taking the LRT ! its quite nice!
Another attempt at photo editing, well, im learning!~
jiayen drew this for Tong Pei. ;D so sweet!
Okays, have to potato soon. Still gotta wake up later to study with Veggie!
lol, sorry lahs, bad attempt at editing, but well, hahas, i love it.
( sorry veggie, i did a lousy job!)
A random picture, taken at the chinese garden(:
Confucius? hahas, at the chinese garden
Carps, lovely, too bad i didnt get to feed it!
The lake at chinese garden, or is it japanese garden?
the same lake, just a different angle ( im not a good photographer!)
The sun as seen from the west, so beautiful i wish i could have it!
the entrance!
My first time taking the LRT ! its quite nice!
Another attempt at photo editing, well, im learning!~
jiayen drew this for Tong Pei. ;D so sweet!
Okays, have to potato soon. Still gotta wake up later to study with Veggie!
Friday, April 18, 2008
5:30 AM
Damn sad.
Damn sad.
To be frank, this cloud of misery is hanging above me. Im listening to those emotional songs to suit the mood, and the more i listen to them, the more i feel like tearing. Actually, you know crying doesn't helps, when you've just done it a million times before, and it actually doesnt even get those troubles off you. Yeah, people could guess who the girl in the story is. I mean, they told me its obvious. Sorry then, im not creative.
Sorry im just not the sporty kind.
Sorry im just not the really enthusiastic kind.
Sorry im not the flatter-people- kind.
Sory, im everything but what you want of me.
I've given my best, and you ask me, whats my best?!
You caught me there, i really couldnt answer you.
IM really sad, and i dont know what to do.
nothing helps.
there are currently 12 unread and unreplied messages in my inbox.
Happy birthday to nanyang jc.
you suck.
Sorry im just not the sporty kind.
Sorry im just not the really enthusiastic kind.
Sorry im not the flatter-people- kind.
Sory, im everything but what you want of me.
I've given my best, and you ask me, whats my best?!
You caught me there, i really couldnt answer you.
IM really sad, and i dont know what to do.
nothing helps.
there are currently 12 unread and unreplied messages in my inbox.
Happy birthday to nanyang jc.
you suck.
3:52 AM
Yet..
Yet..
I'll start off this post with a story, i sort of chanced upon this story. It's a day out of a girl's daily school routine, just like a page torn in the middle of someone else's diary. so, read on if you're interested, if not, you know what other better things you can spend your time on other than reading this short story.
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"Ant was feeling pretty happy when she reached school today. She was able to complete most of her maths last night, sleeping at an ungodly time of 1.47, and waking up at a mere 5.30. She didnt sleep on the bus even though she was tired, she had to study for her Maths test, even though it wasn't confirmed that there's gonna be one. She was all smiles when she stood in line with her class, holding on dearly to her bag because the floor was wet as a result of a slight drizzle. She smiled at many people, and felt pretty good about herself. Until..she received the Chemistry labwork that she'd done yesterday. She thought she was improving, as she had studied for the chemistry before going for the labwork. Sadly, the teacher wrote three unkind words on her script which made her want to ball her paper and throw it away. but she didnt. She didn't want others to know that she's actually feeling quite demoralized by what happened, so she faked a smile, and allowed her friends to laugh at her script. That feeling was unbearable, and through the whole of the Maths lecture that was held, she didnt talk. Just kept quiet and tried to follow what the teacher was going through. nobody was able to understand how she felt, because in her previous experiments, she had also obtained bad comments from her chemistry teacher. she tried to work hard, and most of her friends said she's doing a great job.. Maybe they didnt really mean it. She drew a sad face next to the three words and kept them in the front of her file, so she could look at that comment and evaluate what went wrong. she didnt know what to do. She pushed that comment out of her mind and tried to concentrate, and she laughed along with everyone else when jokes were made. Still, she felt so burdened. the whole day was just a blur passing of hellos, fake smiles and unconvincing laughter. She listened to her songs in the 45 minute ride, falling asleep here and there. And she missed her bus stop, alighting only 4 stops after. She didnt take a bus home. she walked home despite the heavy bag. Her music brought her some consolation. She's seen as a bubbly girl in school, laughing loudly at things that weren't even funny. along the way, she asked herself, why couldnt she just appear how she felt on the inside? the question had been raised to her many a times before, and she still havent got the reason why. she felt, maybe it's due to the fact that people always go to happy people for advice, and since she was one of those who people approached whenever they're sad, she chose not to manifest those feelings. And home was the only place she turned to for comfort, seeing that most of the time, she'd be alone at home. She didnt reply to any of the messages her friends sent to her. She really didnt know what to reply. Maybe she'd reply them later.. She stood along the corridor leading to her home, the song in her ears still playing as she looked up ahead at the boundless sky. That was something she loved to do..."
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Well, i think that girl did the right thing. Do you think she did the right thing by remaining happy? Well, there are two sides to a person. Everyone has got their happy and sad things. Dont just look at a person and think that she is happy, because you never know how she feels on the inside. She may be the one who choose to be happy just so the others around her wont be affected. And those are the people who'll burst out crying only when they reach the cosy confines of their home. I do not deny that im one of those people. It's usually once in a blue moon ( pardon the paradox) that i tell people my true feelings , and ask them for advice, in the process, seeking some encouragement and consolation. But i dont think i'll ever do that anymore.
Sometimes, keeping to yourself is the best thing that you can do for yourself and the others, because in a way, you wont burden people with your troubles, and in another, you'll lock them safely in your heart and never bring them up, so as the sands of time pass by, you'll, maybe, gradually forget about them...
Goodbye.
Well, i think that girl did the right thing. Do you think she did the right thing by remaining happy? Well, there are two sides to a person. Everyone has got their happy and sad things. Dont just look at a person and think that she is happy, because you never know how she feels on the inside. She may be the one who choose to be happy just so the others around her wont be affected. And those are the people who'll burst out crying only when they reach the cosy confines of their home. I do not deny that im one of those people. It's usually once in a blue moon ( pardon the paradox) that i tell people my true feelings , and ask them for advice, in the process, seeking some encouragement and consolation. But i dont think i'll ever do that anymore.
Sometimes, keeping to yourself is the best thing that you can do for yourself and the others, because in a way, you wont burden people with your troubles, and in another, you'll lock them safely in your heart and never bring them up, so as the sands of time pass by, you'll, maybe, gradually forget about them...
Goodbye.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
5:09 AM
lonely
lonely
I feel so lonely all of a sudden.
Actually im eating now, my dinner.
But as i eat on my dining table,
and sing like nobody's business.
I feel so lonely man.
there's just nobody at home.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS
I drew it. Just you know.
lonely.
Actually im eating now, my dinner.
But as i eat on my dining table,
and sing like nobody's business.
I feel so lonely man.
there's just nobody at home.
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS
I drew it. Just you know.
lonely.
2:12 AM
potato and veggie
potato and veggie
im actually laughing at the title that i put for this post. you wont be able to see it, but its alright. I enjoyed myself just by laughing at the title. Well, shit. I remembered i wanted to type something, then i forgot what it is that i wanna say. Uhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Forget it, well apparently i already have..
Next thing i remember, i am going to donate my blood. Well, i want to. They say the minimum weight should be 45 kg. Fortunately, im 45.6 kg, so yay1 i am able to donate my sacred blood. lol. I received chocolates today. Actually i feel so guilty you know. I always get chocolates from veggie then i never give any back in return. Uhm, i gave chocolate back in return , only once. You might have realised that in the previous sentence, " chocolate" does not has an "S". Well, i dont wanna make the same grammatical error twice, so haha, i remember its chocolate.
We had GP test - sort of - just now. It's 1 and a half hour! And i fell asleep, aka potato-ed. I can sleep anywhere! I slept on the basement of LT4 before ( an embarrassing incident) , and i slept on seat in the library, and i slept in the classroom. and on the bus. I just potato everywhere!
There was pugilistic on wednesday. We did quite alot of things. I have to be the lion's head and not the bum of the lion ( i dont know if it's a blessing or a curse), because im the smallest J1 girl in the whole of Pugi. So, its impossible that i can be the lion's bum. So, i have to like jump up onto ellene's thigh ( right thigh) because ellene is my lion's bum. its just so difficult for us to do it. i mean, i need to have the leg power, and she needs to have the arm power. which, sadly, both of us do not possess. Was initially very disheartened, until we tried a few more times, i was sort of the guinea pig. I remember climbing on so many people's thigh because well, like i say, they wanna demonstrate the posture the bum have to stand. And i fell. when i tried to stand on ellene's thigh. It kinda hurts a great deal because i hit my back. and my tailbone has not yet recovered, so i sat on the ground for a while and then tried to continue. Im trying hard(:
Im very inflexible, i cannot do so many things even though im not very fat. Which saddens me alot, but i wont be disheartened. I guess i'll continue trying and trying. and trying and trying.
I learnt the cymbals too. IT WAS FUN FUN FUN ( to the power of infinity).
Well, actually i dont like playing the cymbals. But i enjoyed playing them yesterday.
YAY! ( i shouted that yesterday and the instructor looked at me like im so idiot).
I was happy because i know how to play some parts ;D
Terence took 22 with gavin and i yesterday. But he didnt alight at Gavin's stop. He went to the stop at my house, even though its actually quite far! And he took 60 from there and then 40. It's quite a long journey for him compared to when he just take 135 home. We crapped on the way, we just talked about nonsensical things like, i told him i live at this patch of soil and then i said my bathroom is in the bushes, i live on the nest high up in the tree, and have birdnest as my dinner everyday. Was quite stupid, but he played along. It's like we're making stories. And he says im a naive person.
Im not. Im realistic.
Well, i think i have to go now. Loads of maths to do!
Hope my tailbone will recover soon, and that Veggie will also get well soon.
Potato-ing ant and veggie-ing Gi-ant?
hahahahahahas
Forget it, well apparently i already have..
Next thing i remember, i am going to donate my blood. Well, i want to. They say the minimum weight should be 45 kg. Fortunately, im 45.6 kg, so yay1 i am able to donate my sacred blood. lol. I received chocolates today. Actually i feel so guilty you know. I always get chocolates from veggie then i never give any back in return. Uhm, i gave chocolate back in return , only once. You might have realised that in the previous sentence, " chocolate" does not has an "S". Well, i dont wanna make the same grammatical error twice, so haha, i remember its chocolate.
We had GP test - sort of - just now. It's 1 and a half hour! And i fell asleep, aka potato-ed. I can sleep anywhere! I slept on the basement of LT4 before ( an embarrassing incident) , and i slept on seat in the library, and i slept in the classroom. and on the bus. I just potato everywhere!
There was pugilistic on wednesday. We did quite alot of things. I have to be the lion's head and not the bum of the lion ( i dont know if it's a blessing or a curse), because im the smallest J1 girl in the whole of Pugi. So, its impossible that i can be the lion's bum. So, i have to like jump up onto ellene's thigh ( right thigh) because ellene is my lion's bum. its just so difficult for us to do it. i mean, i need to have the leg power, and she needs to have the arm power. which, sadly, both of us do not possess. Was initially very disheartened, until we tried a few more times, i was sort of the guinea pig. I remember climbing on so many people's thigh because well, like i say, they wanna demonstrate the posture the bum have to stand. And i fell. when i tried to stand on ellene's thigh. It kinda hurts a great deal because i hit my back. and my tailbone has not yet recovered, so i sat on the ground for a while and then tried to continue. Im trying hard(:
Im very inflexible, i cannot do so many things even though im not very fat. Which saddens me alot, but i wont be disheartened. I guess i'll continue trying and trying. and trying and trying.
I learnt the cymbals too. IT WAS FUN FUN FUN ( to the power of infinity).
Well, actually i dont like playing the cymbals. But i enjoyed playing them yesterday.
YAY! ( i shouted that yesterday and the instructor looked at me like im so idiot).
I was happy because i know how to play some parts ;D
Terence took 22 with gavin and i yesterday. But he didnt alight at Gavin's stop. He went to the stop at my house, even though its actually quite far! And he took 60 from there and then 40. It's quite a long journey for him compared to when he just take 135 home. We crapped on the way, we just talked about nonsensical things like, i told him i live at this patch of soil and then i said my bathroom is in the bushes, i live on the nest high up in the tree, and have birdnest as my dinner everyday. Was quite stupid, but he played along. It's like we're making stories. And he says im a naive person.
Im not. Im realistic.
Well, i think i have to go now. Loads of maths to do!
Hope my tailbone will recover soon, and that Veggie will also get well soon.
Potato-ing ant and veggie-ing Gi-ant?
hahahahahahas
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
2:14 AM
JC life
JC life
Hmm, JC life so far,
I FELT AS THOUGH I HAVE JUST BEEN OWNED!
Sad right? Yeah man. It's so stressful. I'll wake up every few hours just to check that im on the correct date and that i havent missed out on any tutorials. GOD. This is so NOT the life that i want. Projects are piling up, and i havent even read Othello!
OMG the peal of astonishing thunder threw me off my chair. Ouch, which reminds me, my tailbone still hurts. I mean, i dont wanna go to a doctor, so my mom got me some medicated plasters which i pasted them ( not on my bum) but somewhere there. And they dont help!
It still hurts.
I havent had a proper meal since yesterday. So, im feeling quite happy now that i've gotten myself a bowl of noodles, a sunny side up, and a piece of toast bread piled with egg, all prepared by my mom. Thank you mom! Oh yeah, im in the midst of eating my yogurt.
So, enough about meals. I had pugilistic yesterday. The pugi plant's so cute, im kinda sad that i missed out on those fun, but its alright, at least, this CCA is nice. The people there are like so bonded. It's even better than my class. My class is like eew, but im trying hard not to think about it and try to bond more.
I CARRIED THE LION HEAD YESTERDAY!!!!
WOOOOOOOTS~
am so so happy.
I thought i couldnt carry it, but i am able to. at least well, though i cant really control its movement, but well, heck, lets just take a step at a time!
I've been feeling so lazy this few days. i pray hope some motivation can push me further. I feel myself slacking alot, though im trying hard not to, but i sleep so early everyday, at around 7, or 8. Im just so tired!
I love the CCA, i learn new things almost always, but im so inflexible, that i have to struggle with some parts of the CCA. but its okays, im willing to put in the effort. Anyay, i dont know why, but after joining the CCa, i dont feel embarrassed or self conscious about what i do, i just do them willingly you know. Kinda like, im not scared i just wanna try kinda thing. Which feels so damn good (:
School was alright today. I paid attention, and we have to wear our school ties today! For CT, we have to take those individual shots in full uniform. My friends say i look uber funny but cute in my full uniform, hahas. I dont know about that, i may look retarded, but well, who cares?
And im a potato, and you're a veggie.
Im an ant, and you're a gi- ant
^ ^
and im going to go potato-ing now.
As im typing this, you're veggie-ing.
So yups!
Hahas, i dont know why.
But i find myself smiling at what im typing.
Im retarded?
Or lets just put it that,
im suddenly so happy, and that i smile and laugh at even the slightest things.
Which, is great.
And yet, another peal of thunder made me scream in fright!
Im so scared of thunder!
There's pugi tomorow, im going off now.
To potato, and then maybe wake up at night to do some tutorials.
Goodbye!!
Thanks for the chocolates!
Oh, sister got herself a Pink Nintendo DS.
Some really random pictures i found in my phone.
Yeah, i still have it. Pretty , aint it?
It is a gift from joseph, i think i gave him one too?
Tatty, also a gift from Joseph. Pretty right? (:
It's keeping me company while i was doing my boring tutorials.
See those pair of shoes, i still have them, Joseph! ;D
And look at orange man!
He's telling me that im clever, *winks*
3 PRETTY BABES! the three nice people in my CT.
From left to right: Yuan Xin aka PIANO aka NANCY PIO , Hui yi, and Sherlyn.
Too bad hui yi is gone. Im so gonna miss her LOADS LOADS.
So im going off now.
POTATO-ing.
I FELT AS THOUGH I HAVE JUST BEEN OWNED!
Sad right? Yeah man. It's so stressful. I'll wake up every few hours just to check that im on the correct date and that i havent missed out on any tutorials. GOD. This is so NOT the life that i want. Projects are piling up, and i havent even read Othello!
OMG the peal of astonishing thunder threw me off my chair. Ouch, which reminds me, my tailbone still hurts. I mean, i dont wanna go to a doctor, so my mom got me some medicated plasters which i pasted them ( not on my bum) but somewhere there. And they dont help!
It still hurts.
I havent had a proper meal since yesterday. So, im feeling quite happy now that i've gotten myself a bowl of noodles, a sunny side up, and a piece of toast bread piled with egg, all prepared by my mom. Thank you mom! Oh yeah, im in the midst of eating my yogurt.
So, enough about meals. I had pugilistic yesterday. The pugi plant's so cute, im kinda sad that i missed out on those fun, but its alright, at least, this CCA is nice. The people there are like so bonded. It's even better than my class. My class is like eew, but im trying hard not to think about it and try to bond more.
I CARRIED THE LION HEAD YESTERDAY!!!!
WOOOOOOOTS~
am so so happy.
I thought i couldnt carry it, but i am able to. at least well, though i cant really control its movement, but well, heck, lets just take a step at a time!
I've been feeling so lazy this few days. i pray hope some motivation can push me further. I feel myself slacking alot, though im trying hard not to, but i sleep so early everyday, at around 7, or 8. Im just so tired!
I love the CCA, i learn new things almost always, but im so inflexible, that i have to struggle with some parts of the CCA. but its okays, im willing to put in the effort. Anyay, i dont know why, but after joining the CCa, i dont feel embarrassed or self conscious about what i do, i just do them willingly you know. Kinda like, im not scared i just wanna try kinda thing. Which feels so damn good (:
School was alright today. I paid attention, and we have to wear our school ties today! For CT, we have to take those individual shots in full uniform. My friends say i look uber funny but cute in my full uniform, hahas. I dont know about that, i may look retarded, but well, who cares?
And im a potato, and you're a veggie.
Im an ant, and you're a gi- ant
^ ^
and im going to go potato-ing now.
As im typing this, you're veggie-ing.
So yups!
Hahas, i dont know why.
But i find myself smiling at what im typing.
Im retarded?
Or lets just put it that,
im suddenly so happy, and that i smile and laugh at even the slightest things.
Which, is great.
And yet, another peal of thunder made me scream in fright!
Im so scared of thunder!
There's pugi tomorow, im going off now.
To potato, and then maybe wake up at night to do some tutorials.
Goodbye!!
Thanks for the chocolates!
Oh, sister got herself a Pink Nintendo DS.
Some really random pictures i found in my phone.
Yeah, i still have it. Pretty , aint it?
It is a gift from joseph, i think i gave him one too?
Tatty, also a gift from Joseph. Pretty right? (:
It's keeping me company while i was doing my boring tutorials.
See those pair of shoes, i still have them, Joseph! ;D
And look at orange man!
He's telling me that im clever, *winks*
3 PRETTY BABES! the three nice people in my CT.
From left to right: Yuan Xin aka PIANO aka NANCY PIO , Hui yi, and Sherlyn.
Too bad hui yi is gone. Im so gonna miss her LOADS LOADS.
So im going off now.
POTATO-ing.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
6:49 AM
LONGGG
LONGGG
Okay, first, im sorry for the longgggg absence! Actually, its only a few days! but nevertheless, i do feel that i havent blogged in a long long time. I didnt fail my maths test, for one, i actually passed. though its only a borderline pass, im still quite happy because i didnt have the advantage of the PAE students, and had to self study one chapter by myself. So, yeahs, i got a 4 out of 8. Chemistry test - it didnt go very well, im praying and praying for a pass. Just a pass, to shut Gerda Huang up. Other things like scoring, well, those dreams can be thrown down the chute. I'll probably never ever make it though. so yeahs.
FRIDAY!!!
Mommy's birthday. and i feel like the most unfilial daughter out of her three children. I had to participate in the NY got talent thingy, so i couldnt make it in time to have dinner with her to celebrate her birthday. I was so sick on that day! I felt pain all over and while waiting for the pugi's turn to start, because i was supposed to just turn on and lights and stuffs, we had to wait for the signal at the basement of the LT. And i slept on the floor! In the pugi outfit! ZOMG! can you believe that? i was super super embarrassed! I slept so well, i mean, i could find myself dreaming, i actually dreamt about funny things like chocolates and eeyores! So, some pugi guys came down, and i didnt know! Nobody had the courtesy to warn me! And then Yin cheong shouted in my ear, and then i was like startled. But funnily, i didnt feel the urge to wake up, i continued sleeping!!! then he took my specs and poked me in my ribs till i was jolted out of my sleep wide awake because im really scared of tickles! hahas, i found it quite funny, i really didnt expect to find myself sleeping. Actually, i wasnt the only one, apparently. Gavin told me KK slept too, on the bench. Actually, KK uhmmm, he touched my forehead! i mean, he wanted to see if i was having a fever. And i had, and he told me to rest, so after the guys left, i continued sleeping on the bench till Sina pulled my ear to wake me up. I feel like such a pig! the dragon was so pretty on that day, i didnt even blink my eyes! I just watched the whole thing in awe even though i've watched them trained the whole thing for about a million times ( sorry exaggerated.)
Saturday?? I went out with PIANO. i was supposed to go for Pugi, but i didnt. I slept till quite late till i was late in meeting Piano. We went to get Hui yi a present because she's transferred out of NYJC to NYP - Dental course. I wish she didnt have to go, i'll really miss her like hell! I've got her pictures, but im so lazy at the moment, so i'll put them up some other day, okay? Piano and i bought some stuffs then went home. It was fun, and we've decided to go to China for the OSLE thingy together!
I really hurt my tailbone. Im quite scared. I dont want to go to the doctor because im afraid that the doctor will be a pervert, because its my sacred butt and all. But, i wanna know what's happened because it really hurts alot. Plus, i dont want the doctor to exempt me from PE, Pugi or Nafa. Because i trained so hard , i dont want my efforts to go to waste. Actually i think im typing nonsense. I am so tired. Talked on the phone yesterday at 5 in the morning! someone promised to call me at 2! but in the end, we ended up talking only at 5!! hahas, it was fun, but both of us felt so tired we went back to sleep! And then i woke up at 9 plus today for a tombstone sweeping marathon. Was uber tiring. the images of those tombstones are still swirling before my eyes! and i have to do my PI again! It's rejected for the third time i think, and im feeling so fed up!
And im feeling demoralised actually, because im unable to carry the lion! But i dont care, i mean, im seen as a slack member in Pugi, although i am not. But since Terence, and yin cheong and some people say that im you know so slack, then i'll just let it be? i dont know, i'll just try my best i guess!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I want to sleep so badly.
IM SO TIRED. I just did my PI, anyway, i edited only a few sentences. i dont know what to do. i still got a whole graphing tutorial to do, and if i go on like this everyday, i'll definitely die of..i dont know. Stress maybe.
I wish and wish and wish. but as i do found out, wished do not come true. It's just you know, most of the time you're just hoping and hoping for something to happen so badly that wishing becomes part of a routine and you actually lost yourself amist your hopes and dreams.
And now im wishing that i dont wish or hope too much till my illusionised wishes engulf me and i become a part of my wish itself.
Pictures from pugilistic. Gavin took it. I mean, they're his. so yeahs, I'll give you that much credit, Gav.
All of us - the J1s.
J1s without the guy!
People told me i look so baby-ish in the picture!
I dont want to look like a baby!
BOOOOO~
FRIDAY!!!
Mommy's birthday. and i feel like the most unfilial daughter out of her three children. I had to participate in the NY got talent thingy, so i couldnt make it in time to have dinner with her to celebrate her birthday. I was so sick on that day! I felt pain all over and while waiting for the pugi's turn to start, because i was supposed to just turn on and lights and stuffs, we had to wait for the signal at the basement of the LT. And i slept on the floor! In the pugi outfit! ZOMG! can you believe that? i was super super embarrassed! I slept so well, i mean, i could find myself dreaming, i actually dreamt about funny things like chocolates and eeyores! So, some pugi guys came down, and i didnt know! Nobody had the courtesy to warn me! And then Yin cheong shouted in my ear, and then i was like startled. But funnily, i didnt feel the urge to wake up, i continued sleeping!!! then he took my specs and poked me in my ribs till i was jolted out of my sleep wide awake because im really scared of tickles! hahas, i found it quite funny, i really didnt expect to find myself sleeping. Actually, i wasnt the only one, apparently. Gavin told me KK slept too, on the bench. Actually, KK uhmmm, he touched my forehead! i mean, he wanted to see if i was having a fever. And i had, and he told me to rest, so after the guys left, i continued sleeping on the bench till Sina pulled my ear to wake me up. I feel like such a pig! the dragon was so pretty on that day, i didnt even blink my eyes! I just watched the whole thing in awe even though i've watched them trained the whole thing for about a million times ( sorry exaggerated.)
Saturday?? I went out with PIANO. i was supposed to go for Pugi, but i didnt. I slept till quite late till i was late in meeting Piano. We went to get Hui yi a present because she's transferred out of NYJC to NYP - Dental course. I wish she didnt have to go, i'll really miss her like hell! I've got her pictures, but im so lazy at the moment, so i'll put them up some other day, okay? Piano and i bought some stuffs then went home. It was fun, and we've decided to go to China for the OSLE thingy together!
I really hurt my tailbone. Im quite scared. I dont want to go to the doctor because im afraid that the doctor will be a pervert, because its my sacred butt and all. But, i wanna know what's happened because it really hurts alot. Plus, i dont want the doctor to exempt me from PE, Pugi or Nafa. Because i trained so hard , i dont want my efforts to go to waste. Actually i think im typing nonsense. I am so tired. Talked on the phone yesterday at 5 in the morning! someone promised to call me at 2! but in the end, we ended up talking only at 5!! hahas, it was fun, but both of us felt so tired we went back to sleep! And then i woke up at 9 plus today for a tombstone sweeping marathon. Was uber tiring. the images of those tombstones are still swirling before my eyes! and i have to do my PI again! It's rejected for the third time i think, and im feeling so fed up!
And im feeling demoralised actually, because im unable to carry the lion! But i dont care, i mean, im seen as a slack member in Pugi, although i am not. But since Terence, and yin cheong and some people say that im you know so slack, then i'll just let it be? i dont know, i'll just try my best i guess!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I want to sleep so badly.
IM SO TIRED. I just did my PI, anyway, i edited only a few sentences. i dont know what to do. i still got a whole graphing tutorial to do, and if i go on like this everyday, i'll definitely die of..i dont know. Stress maybe.
I wish and wish and wish. but as i do found out, wished do not come true. It's just you know, most of the time you're just hoping and hoping for something to happen so badly that wishing becomes part of a routine and you actually lost yourself amist your hopes and dreams.
And now im wishing that i dont wish or hope too much till my illusionised wishes engulf me and i become a part of my wish itself.
Pictures from pugilistic. Gavin took it. I mean, they're his. so yeahs, I'll give you that much credit, Gav.
All of us - the J1s.
J1s without the guy!
People told me i look so baby-ish in the picture!
I dont want to look like a baby!
BOOOOO~
Thursday, April 10, 2008
4:49 AM
(:
(:
Im so shocked!
Hmm, i'll tell you and you wont believe me!
For this week, so many people actually told me im cute!
Wahahahas.
Lol, sorry i didnt mean to be so happy but i cant help it.
First is..Terence, He said, im a small girl with cute actions! ( in a naughty kind of way!), then in zacky's mail, he says i talk in a cute way. hahas, and then there's someone else. But then, you dont have to know who. Anyway, thats basically about why i blogged today.
YESTERDAY:
There was pugilistic. I reached home at 10 plus, because we went for dinner, and the dinner was funny. Zeqing made so many lame jokes, and nobody laughed, except for me, and then he was thanking me being for being his supporter. Mdm Tan - the pugilistic teacher. I hope she chokes on a pau. She scolded me S T U P I D yesterday. Well, me, kk and gavin. We are in charge of the lights, but i wasnt taught how to on and off it properly, and she scolded us. But im not gonna give her a damn. I wont let people like her bring my mood down. Bleahs! I fell asleep on the study table, haha.
TODAY:
I felt really sick today. Mom told me not to go to school, and that i should also got to a doctor since there may be a high risk i may like injure my tailbone because i fell straight on my butt while doing the standing board jump! haha! But i still went in the end. I gotta pass some stuffs to someone and also well, i want to go for lessons. I need to. Im already not surviving properly in a JC and i do not have the cheek to skip school. lol. I was given two panadols, and suddenly i was reminded of Joel. He was the first guy to give me panadols last time (: this is the second time i've taken panadols from someone else! Today, im a good looking watermelon! hahas.
Sorry i dont know why im so happy, really, when i think im going to like die straightaway for chemistry test tomorrow!
I gotta go, and lastly, i wanna thank yuanxin, sherlyn and Kuangwen for teaching me Chem today. Thank you people! Goodnight, im going to sleep!
I'll wake up later to study chemistry.
I hope i can.
I havent realy finished and i really want to count on my chemistry to prove to Gerda that im not a girl who's poor in chemistry. I really am trying very hard!
PLEASE^infinity
LEMME DO WELL.
P.S. i failed my biology test, well, actually the whole cohort failed. hahas, the highest is 22/45, and i got 20. YAY!
Hmm, i'll tell you and you wont believe me!
For this week, so many people actually told me im cute!
Wahahahas.
Lol, sorry i didnt mean to be so happy but i cant help it.
First is..Terence, He said, im a small girl with cute actions! ( in a naughty kind of way!), then in zacky's mail, he says i talk in a cute way. hahas, and then there's someone else. But then, you dont have to know who. Anyway, thats basically about why i blogged today.
YESTERDAY:
There was pugilistic. I reached home at 10 plus, because we went for dinner, and the dinner was funny. Zeqing made so many lame jokes, and nobody laughed, except for me, and then he was thanking me being for being his supporter. Mdm Tan - the pugilistic teacher. I hope she chokes on a pau. She scolded me S T U P I D yesterday. Well, me, kk and gavin. We are in charge of the lights, but i wasnt taught how to on and off it properly, and she scolded us. But im not gonna give her a damn. I wont let people like her bring my mood down. Bleahs! I fell asleep on the study table, haha.
TODAY:
I felt really sick today. Mom told me not to go to school, and that i should also got to a doctor since there may be a high risk i may like injure my tailbone because i fell straight on my butt while doing the standing board jump! haha! But i still went in the end. I gotta pass some stuffs to someone and also well, i want to go for lessons. I need to. Im already not surviving properly in a JC and i do not have the cheek to skip school. lol. I was given two panadols, and suddenly i was reminded of Joel. He was the first guy to give me panadols last time (: this is the second time i've taken panadols from someone else! Today, im a good looking watermelon! hahas.
Sorry i dont know why im so happy, really, when i think im going to like die straightaway for chemistry test tomorrow!
I gotta go, and lastly, i wanna thank yuanxin, sherlyn and Kuangwen for teaching me Chem today. Thank you people! Goodnight, im going to sleep!
I'll wake up later to study chemistry.
I hope i can.
I havent realy finished and i really want to count on my chemistry to prove to Gerda that im not a girl who's poor in chemistry. I really am trying very hard!
PLEASE^infinity
LEMME DO WELL.
P.S. i failed my biology test, well, actually the whole cohort failed. hahas, the highest is 22/45, and i got 20. YAY!
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
5:38 AM
saddd
saddd
Im so so so worried!
Im so sorry for not replying promptly yesterday!
you waited so long for my reply till you didnt sleep enough and have a fever!
Sorry!!!
I wish you'll get well soon.
Im so worried!
And i cant concentrate on doing my things! booooo!
Im so sorry for not replying promptly yesterday!
you waited so long for my reply till you didnt sleep enough and have a fever!
Sorry!!!
I wish you'll get well soon.
Im so worried!
And i cant concentrate on doing my things! booooo!
12:29 AM
MEMORIES
MEMORIES
PICTURES:
I love domokun! but i cannot find any themes with him inside in my phone!
But my sister got it!
I might have put the next two pictures up here before, but i just wanna put them up again, we are so not alike looking!!!
eileen YVONNE - my sister
thats me.
the sky cried for me just now, so i took a picture of the wet wet road. blobbed by tears of the clouds. for me.
THEIR SASH GLOWS !!!! SO PRETTY!
The dragon that glows. Pretty pretty.
Reminiscence.
PICTURES. They speak of so many words. And they are full of meanings.
Oh, did i mention? i fell asleep while replying someone's messages, and he got sick as a result!!
IM SO SORRRRY.
I love domokun! but i cannot find any themes with him inside in my phone!
But my sister got it!
I might have put the next two pictures up here before, but i just wanna put them up again, we are so not alike looking!!!
thats me.
the sky cried for me just now, so i took a picture of the wet wet road. blobbed by tears of the clouds. for me.
THEIR SASH GLOWS !!!! SO PRETTY!
The dragon that glows. Pretty pretty.
Reminiscence.
PICTURES. They speak of so many words. And they are full of meanings.
Oh, did i mention? i fell asleep while replying someone's messages, and he got sick as a result!!
IM SO SORRRRY.
Monday, April 7, 2008
11:43 PM
o8o2
o8o2
HELLO THERE!
An enthusiastic greeting. Thats all i can manage. Sorry, you shouldnt expect too much from me. I'll tell you something. someone tells me i need a boyfriend. A person who can accompany me always, instead of stupidly just writing whatever i feel into this blog, i should like get someone to always be there and share my problems and happiness. Laugh together with me, and yay! happily ever after.
I dont think so.
I told that person, nobody wants me! and that person says, who says nobody wants you?
I said it so myself.
and that person says, you must fight for your own happiness.
So, i thought, to what extent? Wont fighting results in people getting hurt? Yeah, it does. Of course many people dont know about that. sometimes, you may think something is easy, you know. But actually, what you're looking at is just the surface. There's something much more than that. Nobody wanna get hurt, just like how the ants do not wish to die. So, who am i to go and pursue my so called happiness at the expense of others? It's just not meant to be.
No matter how i wish i can get to be with someone. I wont say it.
Because i dont wanna destroy anything, be it, the friendship between us, or whatever.
and i console myself, always with this story.
A story i thought of myself since the day my series of unfortunate events began.
It goes like this: ( dont mind, it's in dribs and drabs)
This owner has got a super cute and pretty pencil holder. And also a really ugly pencil holder.
OH, Iskandar just msn me! Because my personal message on msn is : " yes i want somebody else's company too." He msn-ed me with this ," yes, you can have my company, you can be my friend." Thats so sweet.
Oh yeah, so im the ugly pencil holder. The owner is not willing to put anything into the pretty and cute pencil holder for fear that the pencil tips will dirty the holder. So, he put the pencils into the ugly pencil holder. The ugly pencil holder do not mind. instead, it is happy that it can be of help to the owner, and glad that the owner did not throw it to one side and totally abandon it.
It applies the same to me.
I'll be the subtle ugly pencil holder. I'll be there to listen to the problems and your troubles. Maybe the pretty pencil holder can be your girl or anyone else you do not wanna bring down with your troubles. So, i'll be there and listen, glad that at least you confide in me and not throw me to one side.
So, yups, everytime i think of this story, miraculously, i'll feel better. you know, in a way like, " at least i can be there..."
thats the good part of my wild imagination. to think i can actually link myself to pencil holders. Well.
Next, grousings.
my class.
IT SUCKS.
Okay, oh my! did i just say my class sucks? well, i think i have but i dont care.
thats how i feel! I feel sad.
For the class. And maybe, for myself.
There is totally no bonding in the class, so much so, to be truthful, i dont wish that i belong there. I miss 4E1 so much. 4E1 is like so much more bonded compared to 0802.
0805 is bonded too. Thats why, usually in the mornings, i will sit with 05 instead because the people there are like so nice. E.G. Kun beng, hui ting, Gavin , shi min, ellene, Michelle. and so on.
Even the teachers say our class is like each person is so alone. Totally no bonding.
I used to think im the only one who feels this way, so i try my best to mingle more with a class that is not responding.
And then i realise, no! Im not the only one.
Haniffa feels it too. And i dont blame anna for wanting to hang out with her AMK friends. No, i miss all my friends too. The only people in 0802 i tend to hang out with will be, Yuan Xin, Lee Chia, Haniffa, jia xin, hui yi, shirlene and Visha. Thats all. I like hanging out with yuan Xin and gang, she makes me laugh so much.
Or maybe i just am trying my very best to laugh more so that i can project a happy image.
Im like, just deluding myself. Laughing so hard. Who am i trying to kid? i dont know.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR`
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
And there's chemistry tomorrow! Oh, the horrors! GERDA HUANG!!! im so miserable , i dont wanna see her. She so likes to pick on me. Nevermind.
what sucks?
Being in a class thats not responding?
Or, being picked on by a fat bitch?
HAHA. So not funny, both sucks equally.
Im so not happy. so so so not happy.
Still gotta mug for chemistry!
i like atomic structure, but i hate Redox and the mole mole thingy!!
So exasperating.
No matter what, i'll try to be happy happy in school. Even if it means a facade.
Because i cant be happy always, but i dont wanna bring my friends down.
SO, yeah.
Im happy with my results for running, i ran 3 rounds in 6 minutes 55 seconds. Im also happy for the first time in my life, about my standing board jump, i did it, got a D, 160!! ( its so irregular! i always fail!) , and my inclined, im able to do 7 in a shot! YAY.
and about the class problem?
I dont care too. Im not gonna try and mingle anymore.
See a girl with her earphones on.
she might not wanna hear what you wanna say.
An enthusiastic greeting. Thats all i can manage. Sorry, you shouldnt expect too much from me. I'll tell you something. someone tells me i need a boyfriend. A person who can accompany me always, instead of stupidly just writing whatever i feel into this blog, i should like get someone to always be there and share my problems and happiness. Laugh together with me, and yay! happily ever after.
I dont think so.
I told that person, nobody wants me! and that person says, who says nobody wants you?
I said it so myself.
and that person says, you must fight for your own happiness.
So, i thought, to what extent? Wont fighting results in people getting hurt? Yeah, it does. Of course many people dont know about that. sometimes, you may think something is easy, you know. But actually, what you're looking at is just the surface. There's something much more than that. Nobody wanna get hurt, just like how the ants do not wish to die. So, who am i to go and pursue my so called happiness at the expense of others? It's just not meant to be.
No matter how i wish i can get to be with someone. I wont say it.
Because i dont wanna destroy anything, be it, the friendship between us, or whatever.
and i console myself, always with this story.
A story i thought of myself since the day my series of unfortunate events began.
It goes like this: ( dont mind, it's in dribs and drabs)
This owner has got a super cute and pretty pencil holder. And also a really ugly pencil holder.
OH, Iskandar just msn me! Because my personal message on msn is : " yes i want somebody else's company too." He msn-ed me with this ," yes, you can have my company, you can be my friend." Thats so sweet.
Oh yeah, so im the ugly pencil holder. The owner is not willing to put anything into the pretty and cute pencil holder for fear that the pencil tips will dirty the holder. So, he put the pencils into the ugly pencil holder. The ugly pencil holder do not mind. instead, it is happy that it can be of help to the owner, and glad that the owner did not throw it to one side and totally abandon it.
It applies the same to me.
I'll be the subtle ugly pencil holder. I'll be there to listen to the problems and your troubles. Maybe the pretty pencil holder can be your girl or anyone else you do not wanna bring down with your troubles. So, i'll be there and listen, glad that at least you confide in me and not throw me to one side.
So, yups, everytime i think of this story, miraculously, i'll feel better. you know, in a way like, " at least i can be there..."
thats the good part of my wild imagination. to think i can actually link myself to pencil holders. Well.
Next, grousings.
my class.
IT SUCKS.
Okay, oh my! did i just say my class sucks? well, i think i have but i dont care.
thats how i feel! I feel sad.
For the class. And maybe, for myself.
There is totally no bonding in the class, so much so, to be truthful, i dont wish that i belong there. I miss 4E1 so much. 4E1 is like so much more bonded compared to 0802.
0805 is bonded too. Thats why, usually in the mornings, i will sit with 05 instead because the people there are like so nice. E.G. Kun beng, hui ting, Gavin , shi min, ellene, Michelle. and so on.
Even the teachers say our class is like each person is so alone. Totally no bonding.
I used to think im the only one who feels this way, so i try my best to mingle more with a class that is not responding.
And then i realise, no! Im not the only one.
Haniffa feels it too. And i dont blame anna for wanting to hang out with her AMK friends. No, i miss all my friends too. The only people in 0802 i tend to hang out with will be, Yuan Xin, Lee Chia, Haniffa, jia xin, hui yi, shirlene and Visha. Thats all. I like hanging out with yuan Xin and gang, she makes me laugh so much.
Or maybe i just am trying my very best to laugh more so that i can project a happy image.
Im like, just deluding myself. Laughing so hard. Who am i trying to kid? i dont know.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR`
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
And there's chemistry tomorrow! Oh, the horrors! GERDA HUANG!!! im so miserable , i dont wanna see her. She so likes to pick on me. Nevermind.
what sucks?
Being in a class thats not responding?
Or, being picked on by a fat bitch?
HAHA. So not funny, both sucks equally.
Im so not happy. so so so not happy.
Still gotta mug for chemistry!
i like atomic structure, but i hate Redox and the mole mole thingy!!
So exasperating.
No matter what, i'll try to be happy happy in school. Even if it means a facade.
Because i cant be happy always, but i dont wanna bring my friends down.
SO, yeah.
Im happy with my results for running, i ran 3 rounds in 6 minutes 55 seconds. Im also happy for the first time in my life, about my standing board jump, i did it, got a D, 160!! ( its so irregular! i always fail!) , and my inclined, im able to do 7 in a shot! YAY.
and about the class problem?
I dont care too. Im not gonna try and mingle anymore.
See a girl with her earphones on.
she might not wanna hear what you wanna say.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
2:10 AM
Fed up.
Fed up.
Im so fed up. My PI is due tomorrow, and i havent done it yet. truth to be told, i know the first part of the question, i have done the first part. It's the second part, the planning of a journey for students of my age and blah blahs. That is the part i dont know. HOW? It's due tomorrow, and oh my god, i think im gonna have to burn the midnight oil tonight again!
I was terribly depressed yesterday. Again, i'll like to emphasize that im not always sad. It just happens. Or maybe my blog is the only place where i can freely type in my feelings and emotions. So thats probably why you'll read more on the sad parts of my life than the happy parts.
I did something i shouldnt have done yesteday, and i totally regretted it. I thrown something of real importance to me in a fit of rage, i didnt really throw it down the chute, i threw it into the bin. I was about to go and pick it up from the bin when i saw that the bin was cleared, it was emptied into the chute by my grandfather.
I can appear that i dont care. But it my heart, all these hurts. I was reprimanded by my parents again at the messy state of the room. They screamed. They shouted. But all this, they're not important anymore. Because i've just lost something i shouldnt even have lose in the first place. Because i can have it with me all my life.
It was that moment of anger.
Fury, or maybe even madness.
Yes, i do regret. But i dont see the point.
Because it just wont be there anymore.
I hid under my duvet and hugged my bear to sleep.
It was a crazy emotional rollercoaster ride under that peaceful duvet.
What a paradox, nobody realised, and actually i guess, nobody cared either.
I fell asleep, waking up at certain intervals to reply someone's messages.
they were comforting.
thank you for being always there actually.
You know, you;re the first person i seem to tell all my troubles to.
Almost always.
THANK YOU THANK YOU.
And im so sorry i didnt reply promptly.
I was asleep and truthfully, i cant really recall what i've sent.
Now, im so tired.
My shoulders are stiff from all the research im doing for PI.
And my eyes are turning watery.
I think i'll go catch a power nap of a few minutes.
See you after 40 winks!
P.S. I want the sweetest candy in the world..
I was terribly depressed yesterday. Again, i'll like to emphasize that im not always sad. It just happens. Or maybe my blog is the only place where i can freely type in my feelings and emotions. So thats probably why you'll read more on the sad parts of my life than the happy parts.
I did something i shouldnt have done yesteday, and i totally regretted it. I thrown something of real importance to me in a fit of rage, i didnt really throw it down the chute, i threw it into the bin. I was about to go and pick it up from the bin when i saw that the bin was cleared, it was emptied into the chute by my grandfather.
I can appear that i dont care. But it my heart, all these hurts. I was reprimanded by my parents again at the messy state of the room. They screamed. They shouted. But all this, they're not important anymore. Because i've just lost something i shouldnt even have lose in the first place. Because i can have it with me all my life.
It was that moment of anger.
Fury, or maybe even madness.
Yes, i do regret. But i dont see the point.
Because it just wont be there anymore.
I hid under my duvet and hugged my bear to sleep.
It was a crazy emotional rollercoaster ride under that peaceful duvet.
What a paradox, nobody realised, and actually i guess, nobody cared either.
I fell asleep, waking up at certain intervals to reply someone's messages.
they were comforting.
thank you for being always there actually.
You know, you;re the first person i seem to tell all my troubles to.
Almost always.
THANK YOU THANK YOU.
And im so sorry i didnt reply promptly.
I was asleep and truthfully, i cant really recall what i've sent.
Now, im so tired.
My shoulders are stiff from all the research im doing for PI.
And my eyes are turning watery.
I think i'll go catch a power nap of a few minutes.
See you after 40 winks!
P.S. I want the sweetest candy in the world..
Saturday, April 5, 2008
6:16 AM
Hmmmmm
Hmmmmm
This post will be on what i feel, and some pictures.
Well, firstly, to clarify something, im not always a sad girl.
I smile, i laugh and then i make people around me laugh as well.
But i do get sad. Upset, or whatever.
especially today.
Today- 14th Speech day in Damai.
When i was in the hall, i heard many of my friends talking about where their parents were sitting and how they're pointing them out to me. Saw my friends' parents taking their photos when they were on the stage. Throughout the entire speech day, i was hoping in my heart that miraculously, someone i know, maybe a friend? or any of my family members would be the face that i'd stare upon when im on the stage.
I guess miracles dont happen. And im not saying i always believe that they will, i mean happen.
It's childish thinking on my part that something like that will happen, like someone barging through the door of the hall just in time to see me get the award. Yeah, maybe those storybooks and movies really got to me.
So, throughout the whole of speech day, i applauded for all my friends, as loudly as i can, and cheered for them when they got their award. The applause from the audience was good, the air was heavy with bliss and pride, but i probably felt the heaviest feeling in my heart.
Because it was the last year that i'll be getting an award, and nobody bothered to even turn up.
Nobody bother enough to even give me a hoot. Pictures were taken, smiles were posed. Feelings were hidden, never disclosed.
Talked to certain teachers, and i missed Mrs loke so much! She's an altruistic teacher, and i'll never ever forget how much she'd driven us to work hard.Oh, Mr cho says Gerda is nice, sorry but i totally gotta disagree on that.
Anyway, Gavin and i went for pugilistic after speech day. I fell asleep on the bus and forgot to wake up until gavin nudged me so roughly i was jolted out of my sleep. Ran down the bus and well, changed into the pugi pants. Oh, im beginning to enjoy wearing that pair of pants, they feel nice. even though i may look ugly in it, i dont care.
Learnt the cymbals, it was quite boring, truthfully. Because i got the small cymbals, and there is actually no beat. you just bang the cymbals together. so yeah, Sina ( the german girl ) and i were like banging and then we were chatting while banging the cymbals. she's a nice girl.
the day sort of ended like this i guess. I like the people in pugilistic, they are fun people. And thank god for Ellene in the CCA ! she's an element of surprise and entertainment! ;D
I shall stop here. I'll put the fullstop to all these nonsensical things in my mind.
Vernon's birthday!~ ;DDD
Oh, the cake is delicious
The lollipop of comfort and consolation.
Of strength and of hope.
Thank you.
The NYJCians forever and ever, and it'll go on.
dont we look great? ;P
Some of the pugilistic guys, playing bridge. starting from the one in green socks - yin Cheong , in a clockwise direction, it'll be : Terrance, Tong Pei, and i think the last one is benjamin? hahas. They are nice people although Terrance teases me so so much!
My BFF - my confidant and my laughing partner.
You're the best!
Friday, April 4, 2008
10:08 AM
192th
192th
Today i am sick. Really Really Sick.
But i still went to school,although i reached there way too late.
I reached there at 10, and i was so so scared that nobody'd open the gate for me.
Yin Cheong said he'd help me open it, but when he came, there was a girl going out and i slipped in before he could open it for me, hahas. Sorry if i'd made him feel redundant! Anyway, I wanna thank Karen dear! She helped me zap a copy of the biology notes, and she didnt wanna take my money! THANKS GIRL! You know, i was so panicky when i heard that Mr Neo wanted the enzymes notes today, and i didnt have it. Thank god for Karen! She's so sweet!
Oh, after that, i had PW, i mean after biology lecture. My PI - the one i spent so much time on? Yeahs, it failed. I mean. It wasn't feasible enough. But my brain juices aren't functioning, they disappoint me! Please, if you have any ideas, please tell me! I'll be so grateful if someone can help me think of an idea or a plan to instill willpower in students of the same age!
I went to Vernon's BBQ party. His house is fantabulous! SO NICE! Anyway, i helped him with the dishes since he's the birthday boy, and gavin, me, pei yan and hui ting - we got him a present. The present's a air freshener tag which you hang in your wardrobe, and it says, " i love my penis." So, yeah we got him that and a vodoo doll that has pins poking into places like, more sex". and stuffs. hahas, mega joke.
Yeah, after that, we went home, and i reached home at 1215. It's kinda late but nevermind. I was quite scared when i was walking home just now because its so dark and i had the feeling that i was being tailed. But luckily, someone accompanied me with his messages! Thanks thanks! Oh, i got my phone back! YES!!! I got my disloyal phone back! The unfaithful Xpressmusic 5610 nokia, which died on me!
Im feeling quite sad because those stuffs that i've saved in my phone for soo sooo long. From you, from special people - those sweet and caring messages, they are all gone. This is because the phone memory has been erased. But i also feel this sorta, hmm, free feeling. I will never ever delete those messages from the phone, but it was deleted because the phone's repaired. i must say , although the messages are now gone, at least, you know, i wont cling on to them like before. Im free of those mesages. Yeah, i think i am, maybe of you too?
Tomorrow is speech day. I'll be getting an award for doing well in my O's. But im so sad. Other people, like most of my friends, their parents will be coming to see them get the prize since its the last year. but no one in my family even bother to come! they are all so busy working!
I was so happy just now when someone said he'll be coming to see me get the award. You know, at least someone even bother to come and give me the support. But alas! he cannot make it. He's got important lessons! It's okays, i dont blame him, at least he had the courtesy to think of actually watching me get the prize even when he lives on the opposite side of singapore.
You know who you are, thank you so much for everything.
It's 130 now, and im going to bed.
there's pugilistic tomorrow. I'll see how things turn out.
I think i may go for pugilistic lessons? We'll see.
And YAY! Ellene will be joining me in pugilistic ! bleahs ;D
Goodnight!
But i still went to school,although i reached there way too late.
I reached there at 10, and i was so so scared that nobody'd open the gate for me.
Yin Cheong said he'd help me open it, but when he came, there was a girl going out and i slipped in before he could open it for me, hahas. Sorry if i'd made him feel redundant! Anyway, I wanna thank Karen dear! She helped me zap a copy of the biology notes, and she didnt wanna take my money! THANKS GIRL! You know, i was so panicky when i heard that Mr Neo wanted the enzymes notes today, and i didnt have it. Thank god for Karen! She's so sweet!
Oh, after that, i had PW, i mean after biology lecture. My PI - the one i spent so much time on? Yeahs, it failed. I mean. It wasn't feasible enough. But my brain juices aren't functioning, they disappoint me! Please, if you have any ideas, please tell me! I'll be so grateful if someone can help me think of an idea or a plan to instill willpower in students of the same age!
I went to Vernon's BBQ party. His house is fantabulous! SO NICE! Anyway, i helped him with the dishes since he's the birthday boy, and gavin, me, pei yan and hui ting - we got him a present. The present's a air freshener tag which you hang in your wardrobe, and it says, " i love my penis." So, yeah we got him that and a vodoo doll that has pins poking into places like, more sex". and stuffs. hahas, mega joke.
Yeah, after that, we went home, and i reached home at 1215. It's kinda late but nevermind. I was quite scared when i was walking home just now because its so dark and i had the feeling that i was being tailed. But luckily, someone accompanied me with his messages! Thanks thanks! Oh, i got my phone back! YES!!! I got my disloyal phone back! The unfaithful Xpressmusic 5610 nokia, which died on me!
Im feeling quite sad because those stuffs that i've saved in my phone for soo sooo long. From you, from special people - those sweet and caring messages, they are all gone. This is because the phone memory has been erased. But i also feel this sorta, hmm, free feeling. I will never ever delete those messages from the phone, but it was deleted because the phone's repaired. i must say , although the messages are now gone, at least, you know, i wont cling on to them like before. Im free of those mesages. Yeah, i think i am, maybe of you too?
Tomorrow is speech day. I'll be getting an award for doing well in my O's. But im so sad. Other people, like most of my friends, their parents will be coming to see them get the prize since its the last year. but no one in my family even bother to come! they are all so busy working!
I was so happy just now when someone said he'll be coming to see me get the award. You know, at least someone even bother to come and give me the support. But alas! he cannot make it. He's got important lessons! It's okays, i dont blame him, at least he had the courtesy to think of actually watching me get the prize even when he lives on the opposite side of singapore.
You know who you are, thank you so much for everything.
It's 130 now, and im going to bed.
there's pugilistic tomorrow. I'll see how things turn out.
I think i may go for pugilistic lessons? We'll see.
And YAY! Ellene will be joining me in pugilistic ! bleahs ;D
Goodnight!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
5:20 AM
191th
191th
This is gonna be my 191th post. Hmm, sorry for not blogging for such a long time.
It's been 4 days.
Sorry to neglect you!
Anyway , after blogging that day ( sun,30th) , i finished my PI at around 230 and went to bed, waking up at a very stupid time of 500 just to pee. After that , i couldnt sleep and had to toss and turn till the alarm went. when i reached school, i was so tried , i couldnt concentrate on anything. and the worse thing? Mr Singh did not even go through my PI. BOO/
Then come tuesday, I didnt blog. I was feeling kinda sick at that time , and the fact is, there was a test on wednesday - the biology test i spent so much time to mug on. and what happens? Mega joke Of The Year - i cant do it. It's so difficult, and if i flunk it - well , no surprises there. I know im hopeless. Mrs Gerda Huang , my chemistry tutor ( well , she's a paranoia mamma like Miss wong, and she just reminds me of the witch from how's moving castle), well anyway yeah , gerda Huang, she's ummm. i'll tell you why im sad. Hold it there.
then wednesday? Well, i was seriously sick. Sick like one crumpled bread. Well, actually i find no link between a bread and a sick girl but well, nevermind. so yeah , i forced myself to go to school. What for? Hehs, to take the biology test , i dont wanna drag it further, it'll be like procrastinating, and besides, someone promised to give me candy if i go to school.I went and Well, i got a lollipop! ;) Oh, There was pugilistic on wednesday as well. Well, we did the horse stance thingy and watched the dragon. It was quite fun, but i just felt so lethargic. And i tied my own pugi pants correctly! WOOTS~~
hmmm, today? Today SUCKS MAJOR TIME. It sucked till i was on the verge of tears. how come? Firstly, before i begin today's series of unfortunate events, i just wanna say that ," IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! " Why? Hmm, for PE today , we had to do the 2.4. i thought i'll do badly since im not that fit for running. but i didnt wanna say that im unfit because if i do so, i'll miss a good training opportunity, so i just tried my best. and Guess what?!? My timing's 1536! WOOTS~ It's quite good for me since i usually take 16 minutes +. So, yeahs, happy for that.
the sad sad parts?
They came after PE. It's Gerda Huang. If you know me well enough, i do NOT like to have teacher's markings on my scripts. Even if they write good or whatsoever. ticks or crosses - im cool. But what did Gerda huang write? she wrote this on almost all my scripts. ,' " poor. You must listen carefully. SEE ME." what the hell.
I know im hopeless, but cant you all see that i've been slogging my guts out? i have been trying my best! i dont feel like seeing her anymore!!
I mean, hellos!?! im not in PAE!?
And i tried to attempt it using what i've learnt from my own self studies and then she had to like go and discourage me. Then for today's lessons, she had to pick on me. she scolded me for not having a red pen , scolded me for wrong decimal places, and scolded me for not being able to do some questions. And worse of all, scolded me for something Alex did, which she said, i- as a buddy- is like well, a useless one.
I am sick today. Im having a fever. And after hearing all those stuffs, i just feel so demoralised and whatnot. then i had to talk to someone, but nobody is there. It feels so sad. I wanted to send my friend a message, and what happened?
MY PHONE HAD TO CRASHED ON ME.
It freaking died.
Awesome. Now i have to go around with my brother's phone since i went to parkway to have it fixed. It was raining at Parkway, and i ran in the rain into the cold cold mall. I was shivering like one clammy froggie. I ran to the ladies, and dried myself with the drier - oh yeah, i snitched loadsa squares of toilet paper to dry myself too!
God. How come im ladened with all the unluckiness?
Oh, im quite touched today. 2 Occasions.
First , it's Kun beng ( dont really know how to spell his name since he's from Gavin's class).
I asked if he could help me print my lecture notes using the card that he bought to use the photocopy machine. He told the girls queuing to photocopy it for me, and they said okay. what happened was, the girl missed out on a copy, and kun beng willingly gave me his. I paid him 2 bucks. And he tried to return me back since it's only 30 cents, but well, i rejected it. I mean, he's a nice guy. so, now, he owes me $1.70. Lol.
Next was right after Gerda Huang's lessons. I felt so lost, and so unhappy. Grr, it felt as tough everything went wrong. What happened? Yin cheong gave me a lollipop. for coming to school. I felt quite touched because well, i just got scolded a million times over, criticised at , by this fat bitch and then someone had the kindness to console me.
THANK YOU PEOPLE
so, well, end of this post. tomorrow is Vernon's birthday, so well, Happy Birthday Vernon! ;DD
And i'll go to school everyday for the sake of candy haha. Though i have a feeling im probably too sick to go to school tomorrow. Fever, and maybe a viral infection contracted from Darren ( he got a virus infection and i was in contact with him for biology test so yeahs. ) i dont know. I'll decide tomorrow morning!
And to jake : its okay you didnt make it, its the process! glad you tried! (:
It's been 4 days.
Sorry to neglect you!
Anyway , after blogging that day ( sun,30th) , i finished my PI at around 230 and went to bed, waking up at a very stupid time of 500 just to pee. After that , i couldnt sleep and had to toss and turn till the alarm went. when i reached school, i was so tried , i couldnt concentrate on anything. and the worse thing? Mr Singh did not even go through my PI. BOO/
Then come tuesday, I didnt blog. I was feeling kinda sick at that time , and the fact is, there was a test on wednesday - the biology test i spent so much time to mug on. and what happens? Mega joke Of The Year - i cant do it. It's so difficult, and if i flunk it - well , no surprises there. I know im hopeless. Mrs Gerda Huang , my chemistry tutor ( well , she's a paranoia mamma like Miss wong, and she just reminds me of the witch from how's moving castle), well anyway yeah , gerda Huang, she's ummm. i'll tell you why im sad. Hold it there.
then wednesday? Well, i was seriously sick. Sick like one crumpled bread. Well, actually i find no link between a bread and a sick girl but well, nevermind. so yeah , i forced myself to go to school. What for? Hehs, to take the biology test , i dont wanna drag it further, it'll be like procrastinating, and besides, someone promised to give me candy if i go to school.I went and Well, i got a lollipop! ;) Oh, There was pugilistic on wednesday as well. Well, we did the horse stance thingy and watched the dragon. It was quite fun, but i just felt so lethargic. And i tied my own pugi pants correctly! WOOTS~~
hmmm, today? Today SUCKS MAJOR TIME. It sucked till i was on the verge of tears. how come? Firstly, before i begin today's series of unfortunate events, i just wanna say that ," IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! " Why? Hmm, for PE today , we had to do the 2.4. i thought i'll do badly since im not that fit for running. but i didnt wanna say that im unfit because if i do so, i'll miss a good training opportunity, so i just tried my best. and Guess what?!? My timing's 1536! WOOTS~ It's quite good for me since i usually take 16 minutes +. So, yeahs, happy for that.
the sad sad parts?
They came after PE. It's Gerda Huang. If you know me well enough, i do NOT like to have teacher's markings on my scripts. Even if they write good or whatsoever. ticks or crosses - im cool. But what did Gerda huang write? she wrote this on almost all my scripts. ,' " poor. You must listen carefully. SEE ME." what the hell.
I know im hopeless, but cant you all see that i've been slogging my guts out? i have been trying my best! i dont feel like seeing her anymore!!
I mean, hellos!?! im not in PAE!?
And i tried to attempt it using what i've learnt from my own self studies and then she had to like go and discourage me. Then for today's lessons, she had to pick on me. she scolded me for not having a red pen , scolded me for wrong decimal places, and scolded me for not being able to do some questions. And worse of all, scolded me for something Alex did, which she said, i- as a buddy- is like well, a useless one.
I am sick today. Im having a fever. And after hearing all those stuffs, i just feel so demoralised and whatnot. then i had to talk to someone, but nobody is there. It feels so sad. I wanted to send my friend a message, and what happened?
MY PHONE HAD TO CRASHED ON ME.
It freaking died.
Awesome. Now i have to go around with my brother's phone since i went to parkway to have it fixed. It was raining at Parkway, and i ran in the rain into the cold cold mall. I was shivering like one clammy froggie. I ran to the ladies, and dried myself with the drier - oh yeah, i snitched loadsa squares of toilet paper to dry myself too!
God. How come im ladened with all the unluckiness?
Oh, im quite touched today. 2 Occasions.
First , it's Kun beng ( dont really know how to spell his name since he's from Gavin's class).
I asked if he could help me print my lecture notes using the card that he bought to use the photocopy machine. He told the girls queuing to photocopy it for me, and they said okay. what happened was, the girl missed out on a copy, and kun beng willingly gave me his. I paid him 2 bucks. And he tried to return me back since it's only 30 cents, but well, i rejected it. I mean, he's a nice guy. so, now, he owes me $1.70. Lol.
Next was right after Gerda Huang's lessons. I felt so lost, and so unhappy. Grr, it felt as tough everything went wrong. What happened? Yin cheong gave me a lollipop. for coming to school. I felt quite touched because well, i just got scolded a million times over, criticised at , by this fat bitch and then someone had the kindness to console me.
THANK YOU PEOPLE
so, well, end of this post. tomorrow is Vernon's birthday, so well, Happy Birthday Vernon! ;DD
And i'll go to school everyday for the sake of candy haha. Though i have a feeling im probably too sick to go to school tomorrow. Fever, and maybe a viral infection contracted from Darren ( he got a virus infection and i was in contact with him for biology test so yeahs. ) i dont know. I'll decide tomorrow morning!
And to jake : its okay you didnt make it, its the process! glad you tried! (: