I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, dropping the course and all. Professor say there's no reason for me to drop. It's not like I'm doing it badly anyway. But then again, it's not what I wanna do right. I feel so exhausted thinking about these. I wish I have a clue, wish I have an answer. Wish I can ask you about it, wish you'll pick up my call...




I don't know if I should turn up tomorrow outside professor's office. He says come to me when you're ready to drop. So, I guess ill go to him tomorrow. I'm so afraid I'm gonna make the wrong decision again it's so scary I don't know if I'm doing it right.


My health is not so good again. My period this month was horrendous you have no idea I couldn't even walk! It was so bad I didn't even reject Chinese medicine this time, I was so desperate to get medical attention lest this continues again and again.

I wish I have answers to so many things in the world, or rather I wish I know nothing, oxymoronic whatever you call it, but it's being happy that counts anyway, right?

Have to have the patience to put up with things you don't like to eventually have time for the things you like.

You know?
I wish to just pick up a passport and then fly off somewhere, I don't mind no where, anywhere, but here.