The morning started miserable, and the night seemed never ending.

I sit alone here, and wondered if it was stupid to get upset. Maybe i cared too much.

I understand that you're busy, and i tried my best to be there to provide material and moral encouragement. Maybe it wasn't enough,

 

today you hung up on me while i said "i love you"

i didn't even get a chance to tell you that I'm down with a fever again.

 

I'm tired, but i cant sleep. i need to sleep soon. its 2am in the morning and Ive got school later on.

 

 

And Ive been pushed around by people who i didn't want in my life. People who judged and assumed they knew everything about me, but in fact they got no knowledge of me at all. I wish i can just snap.

 

And i snapped at Nellis today. I wondered if i really really wanted to snap at her, or i was just frustrated and upset that people don't try to do something which they can do. The road in front is obvious, don't tell me you don't know. You know, you're just pretending not to know.

 

 

I guess I'm not of help anymore. I cant even save myself, how to save others?