Hey blog. It's been a long time since I've last blogged. Abstained from blogging for quite some time for I realised that Everytime I blogged, I'll spend a great deal of time wallowing in melodrama. Anyway, it's been close to 3 weeks since aunt passed away, time really flies. I guess she won't feel the passage of time anymore, the ones living are the ones who feel the time go tick tock without her.

Life has been busy, at least I've been keeping myself really busy to prevent myself from thinking about all these life and death thing which really really scares me.

My CA for acupuncture ended. I studied so goddamn hard for it but I think I won't make the cut, it was horribly difficult the paper killed me. I died inside when I left the exam venue, there was a pang of regret, of studying so hard and forgoing my health for something that's totally not worth it at all. My health has been deteriorating of late, all those lack of sleep and the devils of taking so much coffee are all coming back to haunt me, my legs feel so numb I think it's due to poor blood circulation lol. And there was this time I totally forgot to take my meals for that particular day and I had such a bad gastric attack I thought I was gonna double over and spend all my weekends immobilize in bed.

I have also began to give tuition. It is hard to juggle, but I felt so happy when the girl who wasn't able to pass for math and science actually got pass grades for both subjects after I taught her. I just felt so happy, happy is an understatement, I just don't know what better words I can use to describe this feeling. Plus I'm blogging as I'm in bus 179 to school. Usually at this time, dear will be up and will be texting me as he laze in bed whilst I'm in bus for school. Yet today, he pulled an all nighter yesterday and is still doing his assignments :/ I miss you.


Turn off the lights and let you sleep,
Just close your eyes relax and dream.
Keep your heart in mine, even in the hardest times.



When you're feeling lost, don't give up because it's alright, when you close your eyes, I'm by your side.

This song has been on replay mode...


I guess I'll have to start studying again soon this week, another 3 weeks to acupuncture finals.

Eileen! You can do it! Don't let the Chinese scares you!! (:

4 more days to 4 ; 爱。
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