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    Tuesday, June 12, 2012 8:28 AM
    I wanted you to stay

    Today made me realize everything I've always known just never acknowledge.

    My inadequacy.

    Yes, it's bitterly harsh but I see it today. It made me inhaled a really deep breath, but I didn't sigh. It's like this huge cloud that someone pushed down my throat and it stayed them, suffocated me, and I couldn't speak. No words could be used to describe te feelings I had then.

    I knew the only thing on my mind.
    It was the urge to give up on myself.






    I wanted to say, wanted to say that I am so not enough. I wanted to be like them, the kind who'd I don't know. Just that kind.

    I got on the empty bus and I didn't feel like sleeping, I didn't want to sleep. I was afraid of what I might think of if I sleep. So I'm blogging right now, in the bus. I hope I'll be alright soon.


    No matter what, I hope I don't give up on myself