I couldnt sleep a wink the entire night, tossing and turning around in bed i thought of many things once again. Yes, this isnt really anything peculiar or new, coming from me. I'm always the kind that think just too much for my own good, and i actually wonder why i bothered if these thoughts are the ones that eventually dampen and sadden me so.

It is raining now. I sit near the window and watch the raindrops go pitter patter on my window. These raindrops seem alive. As though they were mini balls that had hands which they use to frantically hold on to the slippery glass before finally failing, as they slide down to the end of the window and join their kind to become a small pool of dirty water.

In the silence of my room, i can hear the rain. The sound they make as they hit the grounds seems to me like small destructive explosives that went boom boom, boom. It is ironic then, how i feel so serene, and peaceful. I wonder if i'd have had the same feeling if i were in the rain, rather than sitting out of it, in the cosy confines of my room.

But the rain is making me feel this melancholy. Isnt it weird that it is usually on days like these that emotions you've long forgotten keep surging back like waves during high tides? Haha.

I've to go for my medical appointment later, and then i'll have to go to work. Although the rain makes me wanna stay in, tuck myself safely under the duvet, maybe grab a book, or just sleep.

Okay, gotta stop here for now. I'm running out of things i can write. Oh, by the way, i'm making pretty nice popcorn these days (:

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