I have a whole load of things on my mind right now, i don't even know how to begin. you know those feelings, when you just have so much on your mind, that it someone merge into one entire ball of confusion, and you cannot find words to describe your state of mind.

I can't believe i don't know what to do. I mean, is it because i can't bear to do it, or because i don;t want to do it, or simply because, i don't find a need to do what i'm supposed to do. I wish i know, but i probably won't be able to deal with the aftermath of my own actions.

I feel like such an imperfect soul. I'm simply a plain jane, maybe even less than that. There are so many fishes in the sea, so beautiful and all, i can't imagine why anyone will like a simple little guppy. I feel like a guppy.

Is it some inferiority complex in me, because i've never felt good enough for anyone, it's not like i hate myself, i'm not Emo or what. I like me, but i wonder why others will like me, when they can find someone better to like, you know?

I wish i have more courage, more strength, to find out what i really want in my life, to be someone i really wanna be. We pass by millions of people each day, we don't even remember their faces, yet, beneath all these faces, each has their own stories, their own set of problems to share. We should just stop judging, right, because we each have our own problems, beneath these nonchalent faces uh huh.

Everybody will die. Death itself, is not scary. It's the thought of living behind all that you desire, that kills you. We better start cherishing now, love each day, love yourself, and be happy.

Who knows, i might not be here tomorrow.

night (:

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