I went to visit TS's ah ma yesterday at TS's house. I was so devastated. I remember, two years ago, when i visited her on chinese new year, we talked for so long, and she was always smiling, and she's always bubbly. When i saw her yesterday, my heart sank. She couldnt open her eyes to see me, and she couldnt talk, and for a split second, i was reminded of popo, and tears almost welled up in my eyes. I had to control myself, since it'd be weird to cry in front of his parents, and they'll probably wonder why i'm crying. I want ah ma to get well soon, and i want to talk to her again.

Also, i was kinda, not say angry, it's just a feeling i can't describe. TS didnt tell me that ah ma was hospitalised, because he was worried that it'd affect my a levels. i wish he'd tell me, a levels is nothing. it is frustrating, how he can just think he is so tough and then be tough just because you think it is good for me. i wish you'd share, confide in me. it is unfair, how almost everytime i'll tell you whats on my mind and you wont tell me yours.

its enough, you dont have to be this tough person you think you should be, just rest.


took bus 21 home, and thought about loads of stuffs, i wonder, what you're thinking of when in the bus. anyway, really really tired.

good morning, or afternoon.

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