A little change of the heart
A little light in the dark
A little hope that you might
find your way up out of here
cause you've been hiding for days, wasted and wasting away
but I got a little hope today you'll face your fears

yeah I know its not easy, I know that its hard
follow the lights to the city

get up and go, take a chance and be strong
or you could spend your whole life holding on
dont look back just go, take a breath, move along
or you could spend your whole life holding on
you could spend your whole life holding on

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend
yeah I know you can make it through, cause I believe in you
So lets go put up a fight, lets go make everything all right
go on and take a shot, go give it all youve got

oh yeah I know its not easy, I know that its hard
No, its not always pretty

get up and go, take a chance and be strong
or you could spend your whole life holding on
dont look back just go, take a breath, move along
or you could spend your whole life holding on
you could spend your whole life holding on
Dont wanna wake up to the telephone ring
"are you sitting down? I need to tell you something"
enough is enough; you can stop waiting to breathe
and dont wait up for me

dont you spend your whole life holding on
yeah yeah



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Listening to this song can make me feel so sad. i feel like im on the verge of crumbling, not just of A levels. There are some other things, and i always like to believe that emotional turmoil hurts more than anything else.


I like to think of A levels as a boulder that is simply blocking my path. Now i'm just frantically training myself so that i can move this boulder out of my way with much ease. But then again, after i removed the boulder, what next? I'll have routes to choose, where to go, which route to take?

It hurts my mind, to just think of what i wanna do, after this. i dont have any goals, nothing, i'm just drifting my life away i guess. And this really makes me think, i dont wanna remove this boulder actually?

Removing this boulder precedes a choice. The choice is so difficult, it will follow me for the rest of my life. what now eileen, what now?


Take a breath, and then move along.


Mama please get well soon. Worried much already uh.

I'll close my eyes, and hopefully wake up to see myself somewhere far away, away from you, because you dont even care about me, it makes me so sad to even think of you.

Somewhere where there's this swing, beside a tree, and i can just swing myself into the skies.