I was gonna start off with, " today is a bad day," then i realised that it really wasnt, except the part of tears, and the part of blood. Other than that, today, the sun was shining real bright, and i felt alright i guess.

You know how simple kids are? I wish i am a kid right now. They cry when they fall down, and they can just say how they feel, and do what they want, you know? They can just bluntly say whatever they want, and insist on having it. I wish i am a kid. so when i fell today, i can go wailing, and someone nice will attend to my wound patiently, and it won't hurt at all.

I wish i can just wail. Because as we get older, we hide our feelings so much sometimes it hurts even though we dont wanna admit it. i can say, ' its okay, im independent, i can do it myself." when in fact i really dont want to. i dont wanna be alone, because when its hurting i wish someone'll stay.

Besides the falling down part, today i witnessed how much my grandmom has aged. She's a little senile now, she doesn't understand what we're saying half the time. Her hands are suddenly trembling, and her eyes are suddenly looking so tired. i feel so scared.

You know, sometimes when someone says the most unexpected things in those times i feel like thrash, i feel so glad i have 'em.

And in these same times, when i feel like i needed someone most, and the person's not there, albeit the disappointment, but i'll be okay soon.

Anyway,

Spotter Bitch says (10:56 PM):
?
its ok
im not mad or anything
Spotter Bitch / says (10:56 PM):
i hope so...
):
i feel damn bad
throwing my anger to you just cuz you're there for me really makes me an ungrateful person.
Spotter Bitch says (10:56 PM):
nah
Spotter Bitch says (10:57 PM):
sometimes thats a person thats there for u should get
haha
Spotter Bitch / says (10:57 PM):
huh?
Spotter Bitch says (10:57 PM):
hmm
Spotter Bitch says (10:58 PM):
u dont understand?
i tink i type wrng
Spotter Bitch / says (10:58 PM):
hmmm?
Spotter Bitch says (10:58 PM):
what im trying to say is
Spotter Bitch / says (10:58 PM):
uh huh
Spotter Bitch says (10:59 PM):
sometimes a person is there for u
so u can vent ur frustrations
Spotter Bitch / says (11:00 PM):
Waa
then that person..
will be very kelian...
Spotter Bitch says (11:00 PM):
haha
he'll understand
thats y his there
Spotter Bitch / says (11:02 PM):
you?
Spotter Bitch says (11:02 PM):
me?
Spotter Bitch / says (11:02 PM):
will you understand?
Spotter Bitch says (11:03 PM):
yap.... most of the time
haha
Spotter Bitch / says (11:03 PM):
Hey yihao.
thank you.
Spotter Bitch says (11:04 PM):
your welcome.
Spotter Bitch / says (11:05 PM):
(:









I mean it.
Thank you, yihao.

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