Recently, my life seems pretty screwed up, and pretty bad. I received news in school that made me wanna break down and cry, but which i did not. It kinda sucks at times when i have to like smile and answer questions as normally as though nothing had happened, it was depressing, but i managed to maintain that facade. i didnt wanna make anyone worry, i dont wanna let people see just how vulnerable i am. It's only when i really cracked that i picked up my bag and ran to the bus stop, and then the bus didnt wanna come, and then i kept feeling so anxious, and then i ran to another bus stop, and the bus didnt wanna come. i was rooted to the ground and i felt so tired.


And after that, i didnt really sleep.

The next day in school, it was like hell. My head hurts like mad, and i had to drag my body through lectures which didnt make any sense to me, i was practically just trying to stay awake. It was futile. But i pressed on, and then school ended, and i slapped my face with water and did some math.

Bread tasted awfully nice, with tea.

Keith lent me a watch, it was helpful! At first i was just staring at the watch intently to spot the hand that he said wasnt working. Then i saw that all 3 had stopped, then after that, all 3 started to move! Then after which the second hand stopped. But it was a nice watch, and helpful too. My dad said its a pretty watch, and yeah i finally have a watch that's so much easier to see and use. Okay, i shall exploit it and use it for the next two days ( Shh )

Then another bad thing happened again, my gastric had to act up, and i tried to eat something, to no avail. it hurts so much, i couldnt do any work, and i dragged myself home to eat the pills and rest. I missed GP and Bio, it was sad, i really didnt wanna go home, i really wanted to stay and study for a bit, but i guess some things just cant be helped.

I slept the entire day through, and woke up so late i ate some rice and went back to sleep again. I'm wasting my days away . . . ):

This year had been pretty bad, my health is stealthily slipping off the slope, my studies aint improving, grandmother had to pass away, and things just keep happening. .

But i won't forget to look on the bright side of my life, i've got nice people with me who cares about me, help me, and i love these people, and there is one i love most exceptionally and thus i will press on uh.


Please continue to care for me and give me support.

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