tuesday 23rd june 2009
they really thought its like that. looks like, even my family members, they dont even know the real me. i always thought they knew, i always thought so. i was really disappointed. they think its like that, they're family, yet, they cant look past all the facades and actions i've put up and done. i called people i wished someone will just tell me those three words : It is okay.
Looks like i dont have friends either. there are people that i wish i could confide in, but i know i never can. i wonder, wehn all these will stop.
when will someone tell me its okay. I hid myself in the bathroom and cried out loud. Mom was angry because of that. Angry you know. Anger.
IN me, there was this surge of irrepressible disappointment. i had thought she'd understand me. i feel really bad now. i really wanna let go of this entire jc crap life, i wish someone would understand and ...
just three words you know.
it is okay.