I wanted to blog so badly yesterday, but i couldnt find the words.I tried my hardest to control my emotions, but i didnt make it.Before i knew what had happened, tears just gushed out of my eyes.You know, it is so easy to say things like, prepare for the worst, and i can do it. Those silly words.I cant, i really cant.1stMarch2009My grandmother passed away.The only thing i could do, was to just kept crying, collapsed into a dreadful heap on the hospital floor and thought of the happy times i had with her, and how i would never ever get to see her smiling to me, how i would never get to see her asking me if i wanted milo, or how i would never see her wear the hat i bought for her at Yunnan. I didn't know what to do, i was lost.Relatives around me were crying, and my mom cried too, because granny loved her most. I couldnt console her, for i wasn't any better than her. They talked about the funeral proceedings, and i didnt listen.I went down to the carpark and cried.Grandmother, why didnt you fight? Why did you leave?I dont wanna go to school forever.Labels: I'll always love you.