I dont normally spell out my emotions so clearly, but this time there really is no hiding it. I hate to hide it, throughtout today's entire Spartans gathering, it was such a fucking hell load of facades which i hate. Going out sure lighten up the mood, instead of being cooped up at home, so scary, so stressful, so full of tension every corner i round.I am feeling very sad, and there is nothing i can do. This feeling of helplessness is just crashing on top of me, smashing me to little bits, and i just gave in to it all.In the midst of all these, for some reason, i find myself brightening up when i talked to you. even though i know it is never gonna be and will never be, because .. nevermind, it just wont be me anyway, but i just dont feel unhappy when you talked to me.Thank You.Love Story- Taylor swift.To love and to be loved.Labels: Curl up in a ball with something Hanes