Tuesday, December 23, 2008
2:01 AM
Im not really good at culinary.
Yesterday, during the Pugilistic gathering, Jieyang said," You all really think studying is fun? It's very tiring to study all the time, and so stressed out all the time blah blah."
He said that because people were egging him to sign up for scholarship. He looked very tired, really. First time in my life, i saw his tired face. I said, " Being happy is sufficient."
If i ever get the chance, i wont sign up for it either. The scholarship for Uni after A levels. Weimin also asked me what i wanna do after JC. Truthfully, i havent thought of it. I never think that far ahead. Maybe i really dont have plans, no clue. Or, i just dont wanna scare myself with the Future.
I live as though A levels will be the end of my life. Seriously, i'll never dare to think, nor look upon the life i want after A's. I dont wanna get scared.
I didnt manage to sleep the entire night. It was cold. I had with me, my pugi shirt, and a jacket. The jacket isn't enough to keep me warm, and i had draped my shirt over gavin because he was asleep, and was cold.
Around 5 plus, Jieyang woke up, and we went to the toilet. Seriously, he looked sleepy, tired. I dont know, maybe i wont even get the chance to be like him, straight A's and all. But like what Weimin say, you dont have to pay just 'cuz you aimed. So, just aim for Straight's. After that, i just lied down there and thought of certain things. Im sure i'll straighten out my thinking soon.
Gavin woke up, and i draped my shirt again, over jieyang. I felt tired, all of a sudden, but i know i'll be able to sleep when i get home.
Which was what i did from 7 a.m. in the morning, all the way till 4 p.m.
I really think i need to sleep more. My head feels heavy, but im sure its not due to the can of Anchor. It really takes more than that to KO me.
Goodnight. Soon.
Because smiles are a mask, and to laugh is to cry, remember?