Its a perplexed situation, but im pretty sure i'll be able to handle all these. I really hope so, because the last thing i want is to have a freaking breakdown before thetrip even begin. Nah, its not about the workload, that is a slice of cake. Yet, i dont know whats bothering me. Im feeling very miserable. Today was cultural meeting with Mr Mark, and i felt like a useless lump of shit just sitting down there and not contributing because i was unable to hear what they were saying over the rowdy crowd, and the intolerable noise levels despite straining my ears. I felt insignificant loads loads. And i know i could have put myself to better use helping Rach and Eunice over in the OSLE room. Pretty shitting feeling. Plus the fact that i havent had lunch + dinner. And the fact that i had so little sleep. Had gastric and it hurt throughout the entire bus ride home. I thought there'd be food waiting for me when i reach home. Turns out it was pretty much the contrary. Nevermind, i wont starve. Shit, got to memorise the games instructions in Chinese. So Screwed. GG. What you speak and what you do, why are they so different?