Friday, October 3, 2008
8:18 AM
3,2,1, now fall into my arms now,
Mom brought him home, and said to me , " be a good host." I said alright, then turned to him, and stuck out my tongue. He is my cousin, and he is really a, illbred ingrat. Im trying to be less crude here, and im really trying very hard already. His mom always makes me teach him math, and when i do, there's no thank you or what, he just wants me to provide him with the answers. Seriously, of all the people i've ever tutored, i can tell you that people who just seek answers, will be the people i will never ever wanna tutor. Because they're the laziest forms of people that i never wanna teach. Besides, he is rude, and comes to my house, snitching my colourful markers home. I could think of so many bad words to describe him, but i dont really see the point since it wont make me any happier. And i really must sleep early tonight, i've been going to bed at close to 4, and im really very tired. I've finished the entire dvd serial that i've been so hooked on to, and now i really must study so hard. Mom stayed at home today, and we had chats now and then. She was really random, and she asked me how and where joseph is right now. I was so stunned, i froze as i was scooping out the rice for dinner. I answered her and she was like oh.. Then she said, " last time he used to come to our house for dinner, i still remember i made hae zou ( some prawn roll in hokkien ) for dinner once and he said it was nice!" I guess my mom remembers only times when people praises her. Sometimes, when i have the period now and then, i really hate to think of such stuffs. People will never understand why i'll be so sad over it, and they NEVER WILL. You know what they will do, the only thing they do is say things like, " its okay, get over it and blah blah blah." Come on. They dont have those nice and fuzzy memories, and if you're nodding your heads at this and saying you understand what i mean right now, im saying it again, YOU HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND, AND YOU NEVER WILL. Unless you're joseph. Unless you're eileen. Or else you really wont understand. Because we had shared many bittersweet memories that only we will know of. Sighs. Sometimes when i look back so much, and feel myself being unable to return to the past, i feel so trapped. Trapped between the reality and simply my memories. Maybe im just too childish. Rasina, hurry hurry. Hurry here so i can just laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh with you till i fall to the ground and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh again. With you, i know that im always fine even when all else seems to crumble. I've never said anything nice to Rasina, because im always joking and joking with her. Im really surprised she is always there with me thick and thin. Thank you so much. I know i joke and i tease alot. But i really treasure your presence, your laughter and all your help. The warmest thing i have besides my family, is to have you as my friend. You're the best kind of friendship i've ever asked for. I do keep in contact with Tianseng too. We talk and joke so much. He says he's got a real bad temper, but so do i. And im really stubborn. Like, really really really stubborn. But sometimes my stubborn-ness helps me to persevere because it gives me will. Tianseng is a happy and nice boy (: * smiles smiles* See, this post is like, one minute of sadness and another minute of joy. I think im really disorganised. sleep eileen, sleep. Run, baby, run Don't ever look back They'll tear us apart If you give them the chance Don't sell your heart Don't say we're not meant to be Run baby run Forever will be You and me Check yes juliet.