Today, there's an incident. It's not the first time that something like that has happened.Yeah, its yincheong. He always seem to walk past my friends and i, and he'll purposely try to block my friends, like haniffa, or yuanxin, and then afterwhich, he'll stare, with his girlfriend.Today, i did something mean.I stared back when he stared at the group of us.I didnt want to, because im afraid, im scared.Not of him, but of what i'll do when i lose control of my own temper, and do things that i'll eventually regret doing, like starting a fight or something.I told myself, i'll never stoop that low, but sometimes, i really cant control it.I dont hate him, i just dont understand his rationale for trying to pick on us. I dont wanna play along, i shouldnt.Everyone's right, i do have some real bad temper, im impatient.But i wanna control all that, i wanna have happy memories in NYJC.So, back to studies. I wanted to pon GP today, but i didnt.And i went, and got back my GP common test paper 2.I passed, 22.5/50.The euphoria i felt, i was over the moon. I told myself i'll work harder.But then as i see all the loads of stuffs stacked high on the table, and littered everywhere on the floor.I really dont have the will to continue.I hope all these will go away soon.I took bus 22 with haniffa today, and he made me a funny face when i alighted, the holey face.Thanks to all my friends who stayed with me despite being threatened by yc.I really appreciate that, because when the entire charade falls,I know i can count on all of you.Labels: lost the will to fight.