Saturday, August 23, 2008
7:33 AM
there can be miracles, when you believe.
Hello journal! i had magic lesson yesterday, it was alright, though the tricks are getting more and more difficult. We'll be doing street magic next thursday with our buddies, mine is nic and peiyu. Nic is very funny. He taught me some funny things about cards, thanks! And he's got a real nice phone! We still had to count the money for the flowers after the magic thing, and i only got to go home at around 9 plus. While counting, i admit, i didnt really count, i just drew stuffs on the whiteboard. Things i draw mean something, just that i dont tell people, and they dont really know. To them, its just some plain doodle. To me, the whiteboard is my canvas, a canvas for me to express my own thoughts without anyone actually knowing anything. I went for OSLE early in the morning too, i overslept. I slept on the bus, almost missed the school's stop. I feel pretty bad, because i actually didnt have the urgency, i didnt even rush. i just drank yakult, listened to songs and slowly walked to the room. When i went in, miss darrell's face seemed kinda ' black' , scared me for a second. As usual, i couldnt absorb much things, i was barely awake, and the room was freezing cold. After the whole thing, we still had to count money, everytime count money, couting the money that is not mine at all, haha. Well, first time i had a conversation with Yizhe, woah, he is so good at sit ups, broke the school's record, he did 75 in a minute! But our conversation was quite lame and funny, he is lame. I went home, slept in the bus, and again, woke up at my stop, rushed down the bus, im glad i didnt fall. I reached home and slept again. I woke up at around 9 plus. I am feeling so sick, " im here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind, im here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams..." okay, sorry, was singing. Everyday is sucha cold cold day. I think i will go and sleep. My head really hurts alot. The blue blacks at my waist and shoulder blade has yet to disappear, and they still hurt. Its alright, it'll heal. I watched the fireworks just now, today is the annual fireworks festival! I didnt get to go there, but i could see the displa from my house. It was awesome. The fireworks really caught my breath. Mom and sister were gushing about how pretty they were, but i just stood with them and stared into the sky. Seriously, i think my symbol is the fireworks. They dont last not at all, but they do make an impact on people's life. Because while watching the display, i was awed by the beauty of it, and how they really made me smile. Watching the fireworks with people you adore, like friends family, and even the whole of pugi, really, some things can warm your heart even in the coldest days. Fireworks warmed mine. I look forward to the end of promos, and to the going of china. I got to have something to look forward to, so that it'll deceive me into telling myself that i do have a goal in life, no matter how short term it is. Quoting from ben: A smile may not end the rain, but crying will only blur your vision. I must be optimistic.