Monday, July 28, 2008
7:16 AM
Lean on me, when you're not strong.
Im not breaking away from this mess, im breaking down. Honestly, i cant keep up with these facades, they're tiring me out. I really cant pretend to smile and act jovial anymore. Im losing grip, im losing my sanity, and im gonna lose all my hair if i continue tugging at them due to stress to the power of infinity. I cant hold up too long already. I wish to be transcended to some other places where i no longer feel the tremendous stress, where i no longer have to carry on with monotonous mugging, and where i dont need facades. Where i dont have to stumble through life, literally and figuratively, where i dont trip, and where i dont find myself sobbing like some emotional wreck. ohmyfuckinggod. But yes, i promised piano yx to stay strong, and we'll fight this cyclone together. My dear girl, we're all in this together. I wish i can continue to run to you crying like what happened after that previous sad relationship. But i guess, you dont really care about me anymore.