Friday, May 30, 2008
9:26 PM
I've failed badly , as a tuition teacher.
Yeahs, i really have. I mean, the girl couldnt pass her subjects! Whats a tuition teacher for? A tuition teacher is hired only when the parents want their children to improve on their grades, and maybe, even excel in their studies. I admit, im really happy about the fact that Tasauffi ( the boy) did really well. Everytime i go for tuition with the kids, he'll always tell me the good grades he got, and it really made me really really really happy.
Im really happy for him, and i hope that, even if i really do quit as a tuition teacher, he will hop a level up to Express Maths. Seriously, if he really has got any problems, i can still help him.
Tutoring, really, its not all about money.
It's the satisfaction a tuition teacher gets when the kids she's tutoring score well. Thats the best reward for her efforts,
Knowing that she's able to make a difference, an improvement in their results.
I couldnt do it, seriously, i really think i shouldnt impose on them any longer. Since i cant help Azimah ( the girl ) in passing, i really should just go.
I spent the whole night thinking about it, the truth is, i really am very disappointed in myself and really very sad about it. I thought i was able to do it, you know, teach and they'll understand. there're never these kinda problems with my cousins whenever i teach them, and i thought this step in tutoring will be my stepping stone towards being a full fledged teacher.
Now, i really dont know.
So yeahs, i quit.
Sorry, you all can still come and look me up if you all need help, and thats if, you all feel that im worth your time anyway.
Good day, im not feeling so well, blocked nose, and i've been sneezing like a machine gun. Sighs.
Kids, do your best in everything, and dont give up. i'll be there, if you need me. I shall continue blogging later.
okays, im back here again, oh my god, i feel so tired, dont feel like studying today, EILEEN DONT SLACK!! okay okay, i got that, will study later. Planning to finish mugging for chemistry, latest by monday, hopefully i can do it. Terrypuppy called just now, well, we can meet in school before the pugi chalet so that he can teach me chemistry. Funnily, he called me 5 minutes just after he put down the phone, and asked me why i didnt ask Yc. Well, i dont know, truthfully, i just dont think i can ask him about studies, because, actually, i tried asking him once. I remember we met in the classroom early in the morning, and i was doing my last minute enthalpy tutorial when i really didnt know how to do all of them. then i asked him, and he was like, " like this one ma, its done like this. this one put over here can already."
I was like, oh okay, but in my heart, it was like, uh, what the hell just happened? Why is it like this?
No offense, seriously. But thanks for offering me help, i appreciate it (:
My tummy hurts, the usual cramps. Backaches also, its times like this when i just feel like curling into a heap on the bed and listen to music and while the entire time away.
BUT NO SLACKING EILEEN!!!
TIRED, seriously beat. Actually, i wonder now, even, how do people actually cope with all these shit? Dont they realise that life doesnt revolve around studying and studying?
Well, maybe their lives are all about mugging. Sad man, my head hurts, my tummy hurts, my eyes feel like shutting, and my nose's blocked.
Thanks man. I feel fab.
i think i should go off, get myself some apple juice and probably that'll help. Reminder, Pugi chalet 3rd to 5th, dont know if i even wanna go now. Holidays is just too short to play, studying is important. Right , ha ha ha. so not funny.
Nevermind, off i go now. Probably be back later to blog about the rest of the day.
Yerps, im not some loner who sticks to blogging the entire day, its just, blogging is my life. Being able to write down how you feel actually gives me some comfort. Good day peeps.