Anyways, i just came back from the dinner, the sort of celebration with my cousins. It was quite fun, just kinda sad because sister didnt come, and he wasnt able to come! Kinda feeling depressed a little but well, i shouldnt, because well, at least we spent some time together before we went our own ways.
We ate at Aston AGAIN. AGAIN ! Last week, i went there for mothers' day celebration, now i went back there again for another dinner. ZOMG.
Well, thats all i have got to say. But cousins rock. I enjoy their kiddish presence, and the way they always make me smile with their adorable actions. I love babies, and i wanna have loads of them. then we'll live in a plana-van, and we'll fly across the world.
not the time for imagination now, eileen. Someone's hurt, so you should just shut up and well, think about why he's hurt. But i dont know why. Sadly, maybe im insensitive? but im not! I care about people's feelings, including yours. But sometimes, maybe its juts, your insecurity, my insecurity? I dont know. We shouldnt be, at least, i dont think we should.
Because i have full trust in you.
Maybe you dont, it doesnt matter. I just cant believe it.
And im still thinking of what she said to me, and how, well, how they seem to stay in my mind and make me think about it again and again and again. this is so not fair. I dont like to ponder about such sad stuffs.
But thank you Karen, you really encouraged me and made me feel a whole tad better. Thank you so much!
I cant do these anymore. All these are so tiring. so much backstabbing in JC, so much hypocritical actions, and how subtly the people around you put it across that they want benefits when they;re with you. What the hell man? If I've known that JC life would be like this, will i even want to attend it?
I dont know,. I should really stop thinking,
sometimes, i wish i can be as happy as Yuanxin aka my favourtie Piano. she's like such a hapyp person, i really wish i can be as worry-less as her. Her bubbly personality is like, i dont know,
Why cant i be as happy as her? why cant i be just as smart?
and now you're saying im playing games with you. Im not, literally, im blogging, and well figuratively, im not playing any games, im pouring my heart out.
I dont want this anymore. All these thingy-s suck. I hate to think.
Please, whatever you wanna say, just say it right to my face, i dont want any backstabbing, and hypocrisy, and i dont want myself to get upset too.
I want to be happy just like anyone else.
Worries and troubles and problems , please eff off. thanks.