EILEEN LOO YI ZHEN;
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
7:18 AM
ugh
ugh
(>" ,)> " any free hugs ? "
i was feeling kinda moody today.
To tell you the truth , i dont know why, but for the past two days , i brought sandwiches to school. I dislike the school's variety of foods , so i thought a sandwich for breakfast is enough to kick start any lousy day i might be having.
I started eating the sandwiches the moment i boarded the bus.
And the surprising thing is , when i reached NYJC,
i realised that i was not even halfway through the sandwiches.
So , zomg , i had to stuff the whole sandwich into my mouth before the command for the flag raising thingy was given.
Then throughout the whole song , i get to chew the sandwich. thats the only nice part about stuffing it into my mouth.
But , its so weird! I mean like , i boarded the bus at Bedok , and when i reached Serangoon , i havent finished my bread?!
I know why i didnt finish it today, i think i sorta know. I took my sandwich out when i found a seat , and i started nibbling , or chewing whatever. Then i fell asleep on the bus, and when i woke up , it's like somewhere near hougang , and then i started to nibble at it again. So , i was kinda slowwww. Thats because i am so tired today. I slept at 11 plus last night and woke up at 3 , for some god-forsaken reason which i cant remember.
Maybe its because i need to pee or what , but after that , i couldnt sleep. so , i tossed and turned around until well , i just woke up. And did my own stuffs quietly so as not to disturb my siblings. So , the damn lethargic me in school was moody , and not just that , lol , i took it out on haniffa. He was , like the rest of the class, teasing me about Z-win and me being an item!
And hey! i dont know whats the deal between Z-win and i!
I mean like, i completely know not a notch about that guy and then there's a rumor going around to say that we're uhhmm, waaaaaa~
Okay, so he was teasing me,
and then i felt so fed up ,
i kicked the chair under the table,
creating such a loud bang that everyone turned around ,
and sorta glared and yelled at him, but other that that ,
i really cant be bothered. I felt bad , and a little better ,
for being able to take it out on someone ;
all my frustrations and whatnot ,
but at the same time , guilty because i've just scolded haniffa.
so , yeah , i'll like to extend my apology here , hope you really dont mind , hunni.
Yeah , i went running just now. Nono, hunni , me and gavin , we were supposed to be running. But what happened? i mean , i was doing fine at the beginning , until haniffa started singing and making me laugh until my sides hurt so much till i couldnt run. then we went to the park surrounding my house and then we sang and danced a little to the music blaring from my phone. It felt kinda nice. I sorta relaxed a little. We did a little more exercise , then we went home. I didnt really exercise that much today , but well , i sure had a huge gulp of pretty refreshing oxygen that was able to aid me through remembering the biology part on lysosomes and vesicles. And yeah , my ankle hurt. I climbed up onto the kitchen cabinet just now to get something , i cant remember what it was that i was trying to get. when it rolled outta my hand and i tried to catch it ( something like that ), and then i tumbled down from the cabinet , hitting me right at the ankle. It hurts a damn great deal. Oh, yeah , i remember what i wanted to get already , its the watermelon frost for ulcers! Yeah , and tomorrow is gonna be a boring day of mugging, mugging, and mugging! Grrrr, i missed so many people. ( in no order of importance) I miss wei ling. i hadnt talked to her for a long time already I miss Poi! My lovely girl , its been so so long. I miss Rasina, zomg , i cant seem to find the reason to laugh without you! I miss joel, his sarcasm and what not , and yes, i do appreciate his sarcasm. I miss jake, his blur blur face and reactions. I miss Joseph, his sometimes cold attitude towards me and the way he sorta makes me laugh. I miss my ex class - the noise level and all - seeing that my current class is like so quiet! I miss loads and LOADS of people! Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Im going to bed. Im soooo tired. Hopefully , i wont find myself waking up at 3, and not being able to finish a sandwich on the way to school. Goodnight!
Oh yeah , did i forget to mention?
I fucking pissed with my entire family.
They are freaking insensitive.
Im mugging my head off, and what happens?
they order me around.
for my grandma , its alright, since she cant move much, but for those who can WALK, why are they like this?
feel so much like discontinuing my mugging and play all day long.
I can do that you know, parents.
I can, im just doing my best to satisfy all of you..
do you proud?
Nahs , i dont really want to bother about that already , since you guys dont even wanna take a fucking off day to attend the speech day for which i'll be getting a prize for mugging my head off for the O's/
Nevermind.
Maybe some things are just not meant to be.
If they dont wanna care , i'll just do it for myself.
And i'll be happy for myself.
Im sure i will.
i hope i will.
Sweet Dreams
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i was feeling kinda moody today.
To tell you the truth , i dont know why, but for the past two days , i brought sandwiches to school. I dislike the school's variety of foods , so i thought a sandwich for breakfast is enough to kick start any lousy day i might be having.
I started eating the sandwiches the moment i boarded the bus.
And the surprising thing is , when i reached NYJC,
i realised that i was not even halfway through the sandwiches.
So , zomg , i had to stuff the whole sandwich into my mouth before the command for the flag raising thingy was given.
Then throughout the whole song , i get to chew the sandwich. thats the only nice part about stuffing it into my mouth.
But , its so weird! I mean like , i boarded the bus at Bedok , and when i reached Serangoon , i havent finished my bread?!
I know why i didnt finish it today, i think i sorta know. I took my sandwich out when i found a seat , and i started nibbling , or chewing whatever. Then i fell asleep on the bus, and when i woke up , it's like somewhere near hougang , and then i started to nibble at it again. So , i was kinda slowwww. Thats because i am so tired today. I slept at 11 plus last night and woke up at 3 , for some god-forsaken reason which i cant remember.
Maybe its because i need to pee or what , but after that , i couldnt sleep. so , i tossed and turned around until well , i just woke up. And did my own stuffs quietly so as not to disturb my siblings. So , the damn lethargic me in school was moody , and not just that , lol , i took it out on haniffa. He was , like the rest of the class, teasing me about Z-win and me being an item!
And hey! i dont know whats the deal between Z-win and i!
I mean like, i completely know not a notch about that guy and then there's a rumor going around to say that we're uhhmm, waaaaaa~
Okay, so he was teasing me,
and then i felt so fed up ,
i kicked the chair under the table,
creating such a loud bang that everyone turned around ,
and sorta glared and yelled at him, but other that that ,
i really cant be bothered. I felt bad , and a little better ,
for being able to take it out on someone ;
all my frustrations and whatnot ,
but at the same time , guilty because i've just scolded haniffa.
so , yeah , i'll like to extend my apology here , hope you really dont mind , hunni.
Yeah , i went running just now. Nono, hunni , me and gavin , we were supposed to be running. But what happened? i mean , i was doing fine at the beginning , until haniffa started singing and making me laugh until my sides hurt so much till i couldnt run. then we went to the park surrounding my house and then we sang and danced a little to the music blaring from my phone. It felt kinda nice. I sorta relaxed a little. We did a little more exercise , then we went home. I didnt really exercise that much today , but well , i sure had a huge gulp of pretty refreshing oxygen that was able to aid me through remembering the biology part on lysosomes and vesicles. And yeah , my ankle hurt. I climbed up onto the kitchen cabinet just now to get something , i cant remember what it was that i was trying to get. when it rolled outta my hand and i tried to catch it ( something like that ), and then i tumbled down from the cabinet , hitting me right at the ankle. It hurts a damn great deal. Oh, yeah , i remember what i wanted to get already , its the watermelon frost for ulcers! Yeah , and tomorrow is gonna be a boring day of mugging, mugging, and mugging! Grrrr, i missed so many people. ( in no order of importance) I miss wei ling. i hadnt talked to her for a long time already I miss Poi! My lovely girl , its been so so long. I miss Rasina, zomg , i cant seem to find the reason to laugh without you! I miss joel, his sarcasm and what not , and yes, i do appreciate his sarcasm. I miss jake, his blur blur face and reactions. I miss Joseph, his sometimes cold attitude towards me and the way he sorta makes me laugh. I miss my ex class - the noise level and all - seeing that my current class is like so quiet! I miss loads and LOADS of people! Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Im going to bed. Im soooo tired. Hopefully , i wont find myself waking up at 3, and not being able to finish a sandwich on the way to school. Goodnight!
Oh yeah , did i forget to mention?
I fucking pissed with my entire family.
They are freaking insensitive.
Im mugging my head off, and what happens?
they order me around.
for my grandma , its alright, since she cant move much, but for those who can WALK, why are they like this?
feel so much like discontinuing my mugging and play all day long.
I can do that you know, parents.
I can, im just doing my best to satisfy all of you..
do you proud?
Nahs , i dont really want to bother about that already , since you guys dont even wanna take a fucking off day to attend the speech day for which i'll be getting a prize for mugging my head off for the O's/
Nevermind.
Maybe some things are just not meant to be.
If they dont wanna care , i'll just do it for myself.
And i'll be happy for myself.
Im sure i will.
i hope i will.
Sweet Dreams