My mother's terrified. She's afraid that i'll get dengue. This is because the number of people getting dengue is increasing. Besides, i had a fever yesterday. I vomited , and I've got quite a number of mosquitoes' bites. So, yeah she's scared. she told me to go to the doctor if i want to.
But i think you people should know me well enough. Eileen Loo hates going to the doctor. So , period. Lets leave it at that.
Anyway, i think im better. Although i feel that my eyes seem strange. and i think i really got to be careful , since the most easy symptom of Dengue is that your eyes will be strange. I dont really know how to say but yeah i hope you get what i mean.
I felt very sad today. I dont really know why. I wasn't in the mood to joke in class. I isolated myself from Haniffa even though Hui yi told me not to change my seat. I went all the way to the back to sit down by myself while i drew. I fell asleep on the table for about a few minutes when i felt that something was behind me. I turned around and found z-win there.
Hiding behind my chair. what the hell right? He's waiting for the bell to go so that he can make his escape first. Today was an utterly sad day.
I admit, i lost to her. Because i can never , in my entire life, be someone like her. I give up really. There is no point.
I ate 3 packets of chocolates just now. I didnt have my lunch. I wasn't hungry and i was absolutely feeling uber moody. Ate chocolates for lunch. After school, i went to the Bishan Library with Karen. She wanted to teach her friends certain things. So i went there to read up a little on biology before i really couldn't concentrate and found myself reading the book - Misery by stephen king.
It's a really morbid book. Im going to sleep real soon. I guess im really really sick.
Oh yeah , i've been pondering. People usually say things like , " i wish this whole week of tests will pass by soon..blah blah." Why are they saying things like that? Because just yesterday, i realised that im living every minute, and if i want something like a whole load of tests to pass quickly, so that i can get over it, then what i a looking forward to?
When you're young there can still be many things you can look forward to , say like, secondary school, JC , Poly or stuffs. Now that im in JC, i realise that, i dont really want my life to go quickly now. I want to enjoy this JC life. It may be very stressful, but this is a choice i made.
So we shouldn't be complaining. Yeah. We shouldnt. Because once this entire JC life is over, i wont even know what i wanna do. I'll be at a loss. Because i have never planned for my future. So, i dont want everything to go so fast. I wanna enjoy while i can. As im typing this , my eyes are starting to droop, my entire body is aching due to the strenous PE, and my head feels as though its spinning with the neck as the pivot.
I believe im truly sick this time. I'l go sleep...