I admit it. It really is me. It was alright at the reservoir, I'll be really frank here okay? During the whole time there, i was really thinking about many things.
I started feeling sad since this morning, when dad kissed me on the cheek before he left for hong kong. I already felt like crying then, but i was tired, and he told me to go back to sleep.
Which, i did. But i woke up several hours later to meet you for a walk round the reservoir. Yeah, you guys may be wondering why we walked instead of ran, but, its really because i was too tired. And i still am, no doubt.
The whole time at the reservoir, i was wondering why i didnt see the body of blue water gazing back at me at its prettiest. It didnt even look pretty. Which, really puzzles me.
Since, the place i really frequent when i am sad, will be the bedok reservoir. And i really do think that the body of water is amazing from all sorts of angles.
Maybe i really am wrong.
I was even stupid enough to sms-ed you, " do you feel anything lacking between us" From which you replied "no".
I felt like a complete retard. Sure i knew i had hurt your feelings. Blame it on me. I am straightforward. Or maybe i really just dont like to bottle up anymore.
After that, i talked to my sister and Zul, praying for some words of wisdom, which, they no doubt provided me with plenty.
To which, i was glad. Thank you.
I really was enlightened. Repeating the first line of the post " It's not your problem, its mine"
The problem lies with me. I really cant compare the first time and the second time. Because obviously they will be different. Maybe the reservoir really didnt look ugly, Maybe it just looked different this morning , because i had viewed it with a different person.
No, im convinced. It wasn't ugly. It was different.
Im done with this post, and at the moment, im unsure if i should even post it. But i figured that i shouldnt hide anything, since its my blog, i guess, im going to put it down.
I'll conclude this post with a goodnight to everyone and a sorry to tianseng.
Mood : Momentary sadness. Give me some time to cheer up.