Over some cookies and tea, my uncle told me that he has a house in thailand. well, and why in thailand? thats because his wife is a thai, and she goes back to Thailand every school holidays so that her daughter is able to go along too. he showed me the videos he took of the house while he was away in thailand ( he's there for about a month) and its really spacious! it was initially a double storey-ed house but he knocked down the second level because his parents-in- law were unable to climb up the stairs and stuff like that. he also told me about many things that they did in thailand. like shooting down bananas using rifles, watching the people there ripping a piggy apart due to some rituals, going to dreamworld, and climbing up some mountains to visit a sacred temple. It sounds really fun, and i thought i may join them the next time they go there since they promised to provide for my lodging and daily expenses.
sorry that im going to side-track from the title again. i cant seems to stick to the title everytime i blog, i guess this is because the thoughts in my mind are all mixed up. i cant seem to separate them into different titles. anyways, i am going to talk about what i wanna do after i get my o levels results. i spent a few minutes thinking about it and decided what i want in the third leg of my education.
So, im going to work towards my ambition. In case you dont know what my ambition is, it is to become a teacher. i wanna teach english ( though my english is not good at all), biology, physics or geography, or even Social Studies. yes i am greedy but hey! im just giving myself more choices(: Yerps, so working towards my goals. If i am able to get into Meridien Junior College with my 'O's results, i'll be so glad. i really like the environment in that school, and i think the facilities aint that shabby. But if i cant get there, my other choice is Serangoon JC. many people ask me, " why serangoon?" the thing is, i dont know also. my mind seems to automatically shuts down on other choices and will only be open to the two JCs mentioned. from there, i'll get to a university, graduate and go to NIE. this is of course, a happy ending ,lol(:
If i cant get into these two JCs? then i'll go to Singapore Poly. i'll take a course that i have some interest in, say, tourism? i dont wannt go into a Poly because i really like the idea of uniforms, not just that though, i also feel that i wont fit into a Poly environment. Dont know why too. i guess i'll work my very best to graduate and then go on to a university. If i cant, i do hope i can go directly from the Poly to NIE. then i'll work towards getting a degree in teaching. maybe i can make it, maybe i cant.
This post is so full of Ifs. this shows that life is so full of uncertaincies. And if you really are my friend, then quit telling me that im clever and that i'll definitely get whatever i want. like those people. those people who says " if you say you cant make it then you're insulting the rest of the cohort." i am not. i just dont get the same feeling of satisfaction after my 'o's compared to how i felt after my prelims. To me, i did well for my prelims, even though i didnt get a 10 and below. i do hope my o levels can be the same too. dont give me so much credit, im not the clever girl. i just work really hard to achieve that score. besides, as mentioned, life is full of uncertaincies, the hardworking is not completely spared of bad luck too.
Probably it all rounds up to the luck. if you're lucky then you'll achieve this and if you're not then too bad. i had this sorta argument with Ms V. tan before. she told me that luck does not matter, its just that if you're hardworking, you'll definitely make it. so i told her that luck does matter. like how i studied so hard last time and failed the SS test by 8 marks. this means that luck fails me? i really think that luck does matter. it really does.
isnt that the reason why people pray or hope? they wish they'll be lucky enough to get this thing or that, or achieve something they really want? Does hope equates to luck?
Wow, i've never blogged so much about my education goals before, lol. gotta run now. see you and ciao~
ear has been deaf for 8 days already. im beginning to get used to this handicapped ear :D