Monday, December 31, 2007
12:34 AM
" Any Resolutions? "
Today is new year eve. 31st of December 2007. This year passed by so quickly, everything was such a rush, studies, friends. Some bonds forged and some broken. The last day of the year, and i sit here thinking of things i could have done and things that i had wanted myself to do but didnt. and things that have happened this year and feelings that i have felt. A mixture of everything you'd say. This year is a blur, a flurry of papers to prepare us for our hurdle ( o level ), that now, it seems to me that the hurdle was over just yesterday. I've got friends, many types - those that i still keep in touch with, and those that, somehow appears to have drifted away. On the eves of New year, my parents used to ask me ; " any resolutions?" and i'd think about them for weeks, and still not come up with an answer. To them, it'd be just a passing remark, but the question lingered in my mind long enough to make me frustrated with myself for not getting an answer. So, while im here and still blogging, like the many others, i think it'd be a great opportunity to tell my friends how much they mean to me. a few dedications- i think you already know who you are. (they are in no particular order)
Rasina: I don't think you'll read this, I'll be most surprised if you do anyways. you're always the best friend, when it comes to you, i always have so many things to say i don't even know how to begin, but i guess i have already begun lol. You're my best friend. Always there whenever im sad, and even when i lose my temper, you never fail to stick around long enough for my lousy attitude to diminish. we met each other in sec 1, when Mdm Siti made us sit next to each other because we were so short ( and now we still are ). whenever with you, i laugh so hard i usually cries. you're great company, and even when all else fails, you're still the optimism i turn to. thank you for being there with me and hope we'll be able to go to the same school, have a happy new year ahead.
Huiting and Wei ling: Doubt Hui ting will read this, but well, maybe Wei ling will? anyway, it doesn't mater. Wei ling, i've known you since Primary 3, and we started off as enemies, or rather, competitors in our studies. Ever since we got into the same class in Sec 1, we got closer and became very good friends. I never knew i can count on you until the day when i was first dumped back last year, in October the 14th, and the next day cheered me up with you around to turn to for comfort and consolation. fortunately, we're still keeping in contact, and i'll love to see that we still keep in touch even if we really do end up in different institutes. hui ting, you're the loudmouth, and although you talk too much sometimes ( well, actually most of the time) , i really do treat you as a close friend. you're competitive at times, i don't blame you, because you raised my competitive level quite alot. I really do hope to meet you in the same school next year, you're not just a close friend, you're also a free tutor! * winks * and have a happy new year girls, will be seeing both of you for supper later, fattening me up alot, I'd say. (:
Berlisa: You're the strong girl on the outside. thats how you want people to see you. And i really look up to you for that, because i've always wanted to be that strong as you but never have i been anywhere as successful as you. I know you told me most people says you've got attitude problem, dont give a damn, i'd say thats call personality, style. Lol. You're one of the many few, who shares a common interest as me- and that'll be final fantasy, Don't always put on a brave front, i've seen you at your happiest and your saddest too. We shared many ups and downs and im proud to say, our friendship is one thats quite strong, because even after a few fights and squabbles, we still managed to stay so close. thank you for helping me in my chinese and maths, you're a great girl. have a happy new year ahead.
haniffa: hey my friendly giant! You're the bubbly guy, the most optimistic guy one can ever have. you're one of those who gets me moving on when the going gets tough. I admit we weren't that close back in sec one and two, and had only gotten closer recently in Sec 3. We acted in a video for out history project last time- and it'll definitely be one that I'll remember forever. it was fun to be just near you, hardly do i ever get a chance to feel sad. I say before that if i ever fails to enter a JC, i'll gladly join you in a Poly. Hope I'll get to join you guys soon at NTUC, i bet it'll be a blast. and dont forget our challenge, i know im gonna beat you. and don't bother about what people say about your weight and stuffs, you look great as it is to me. so, stay that way! Happy new year!
Joel: hey there bagagug! you say I've always been there for you when you're happy or sad. Im really flattered by that, because I never thought i can be that kinda pillar-of-support-friend. you've been with me when im most bored, and even at times when im really sad. Thanks for introducing me to those candies, because they taste great and are healthier than chocolates since they don't give you sorethroats. I ain't flustered by the thought of us getting into different schools, because i have faith that we will be able to keep in touch after what we've been through.I admit, we used to have a few misunderstandings that almost brought our friendship down, im lucky they didnt, because you're a Buddy. I know i can always count on you. And i am glad to say that we don't incur alot of "silence-s" when we talk over phones. Thanks for being there and you better collect that uniform soon! It's kinda rotting at my place! And of course, happy new year(:
Joseph: Now i get what you mean when you told me you do know alot about me, but then cannot find any words to refer to me. Because, im loss for words at the moment, i really don't know what to say. You're a clever person, knowledgeable too. Thanks for the ups and downs you've given me this year; the most memorable being the one at lower Seletar reservoir. i hardly doubt we'll end up in the same school nex year, and i do hope we can still keep in touch. However, don't worry, you're a tough nut to forget! happy new year * insert Joseph's invented smiley here = :T "
Edmund: We knew each other back in Sec 3, and only got a little bit closer since Sec 4. I helped you with your downs and i'll like to say you did the same too. thanks for the endless strings of encouraging words you never fails to give me. I really appreciate that. and I don't thin i'll ever get a chance to see you asking me for candy anymore because we'll probably end up in different places. I'll take this chance to bestow my well wished on you, hope you and hui yee will enjoy eternal bliss. ( may be a little dramatic but well, its what i honestly want to tell you ) Happy new year, i cant say this to you personally because right now you're in LA and god knows when you'll return so enjoy!
Zul: You sarcastic man. Never fails to bombard me with a million sorta retarded questions. I cant really think of what i can say to you, just that, when in a vegetarian world, do as what the vegetarians do, thats if you really are serious in going after her. I won't say i disagree but a relationship between people of different races will be quite tough. well, why am i yakking away on this? i shouldn't be entitled to an opinion anyway. whatever it is, i thank you for those encouraging chocolates and times in MSN when you make me laugh. Have a great year ahead, and for god sake, stop smoking.
Xavier: I don't know what to say to you, just that, thanks for the constant encouragement in my blog to egg me forward. It really is much appreciated. We weren't that close back in Secondary school. It's only recently that we do talk to each other ( over blogs, hehhehs! ) Have a great year ahead with her ( somehow, i don't feel like i have the right to put down her name) , and best of luck in Millenia? (:
Wei ming (city harvest): Im really impressed by your perseverance ,and your really romantic approach to make it happen between us. I really am sorry. I don't know how many times I've apologised to you. I know you don't want my apologies, but there really is nothing i can do. Thank you for trying to cheer me up when im always down. You really put in the effort, and it's not that you're not good enough or what. I just don't have the feel. Im sorry for the candor over here, you deserve someone better. Happy new year.
George, Mark: George, I doubt you'll read this and i don't even know why im dedicating a message to you, when i don't even know what to type here. I just wanna say that we've know each other since primary 4, and the first impression you had on me wasn't that good, frankly speaking. I can still remember the days when you shouted " over line" whenever my pencil crossed over to your table by accident. Mark, We've known each other for 4 years and yet the irony is still that i don't really know you. thanks for teaching me Kinematics, you're really good there! Cant think of much to say except, " Have a happy new year."
Jake: You're are always the cool and collected guy. You are one of those people who cheers me up when im sad. Thanks for all that you've done for me, and like Berlisa, i find you as the one always putting on a brave front. don't be afraid to conceal your feelings for you know i'll be here if you need a ear. thanks for teaching me a maths and physics. And don't look so blur in class! Your face always seem to show you drifting away into another world.. anyway, Have a great 2008 and the rest of the years that follow!
I think im done with penning down what i wanna say to these people. So, i shall stop here. Have a happy 2008 ahead of you, and hopefully, our paths may cross again. Farewell 2007.