i just realized that this will be the 92th post already. hmm, its close to a hundred already. well, i dedicate most of my time to this blog, penning those thoughts swirling in my mind right here so that someday i'll know what i have done or have not done, what i've regretted or stuffs like that few ten years down the road. i dont stop blogging when im no in the mood because i feel that i blog more when im sad. Because the happy things in life are always taken for granted that it tends to be neglected. only the sad happenings are remembered and cried over.
Like what i blogged yesterday, today is my ancestors' anniversary. many people came, almost the whole 20 plus members of the family. Even my sister's boyfriend. He came, and because of that, it triggered many questions from my grandparents,like why joseph didnt come blah blah.. i dont know what to do though, i've told them that we're no longer an item but they just cant register it into their minds. Is it probably because he's been here for quite alot of time last time that the think he's gonna come always? Or maybe they've got senile dementia..? So, came more questions from grandparents and aunts, and my mom asked me if joseph wanted any tangyuan. one must definitely eat tangyuan on this day because its some kinda Chinese origins or beliefs. when you eat tangyuan today, it signifies that you've grown a year older. so, according to the chinese calender, i'll be like..18? not sure too, just take it that i grow a year older huhs. It is said that the person must eat the number of tangyuans corresponding to his or her age. for instance, im 16 years old, so i should eat 16 tangyuans. but i find it highly impossible for the adults, like my grandpa. Is he gonna eat 80 tangyuans? i wonder.
My sister quarreled with her boyfriend and for the entire time that he was here, she gave him the cold shoulder and even told him to fuck off. i was shocked. i never will say anything that crude like fuck to my boyfriend. i was expecting him to blow up and stomp out of the house but he didnt. instead, he just kept quiet and played super mario on my hp. i felt a little sorry for him, at how my sister had treated him. she went to bed and slept even though he's still in the house and he just sat there and watched her sleep. He's such a nice guyl, i dont know why my sister fails to see that but bullies him all the time. seeing her like this, it made me reflect. was i like this in the past..? i think i was. You cant just take your partner for granted you know. someday, when you really need him there, you wont be surprised if he walks out on you and jumps straight into another's arms. anyways, i've learnt my lesson. i know where i went wrong. however, it doesn't matters now,right? all i hope is that my sister wont end up like me...
the weather's extremely bad.its so cold but the sound of rain pelting on the ground is so rhythmic. lol, blog next time.