Wednesday, December 26, 2007
6:45 PM
2 days before the day after tomorrow
Well, that'll be today. i woke up late today, a quarter to eight and lumbered to the bathroom to wash up. You know of things like, you're very tired but then you just cant sleep anymore because of something somewhat disturbing? well, i felt like that and after washing up, i poured myself a cup of cold milk. then comes the same routine - switch on the computer and blog. So,here i am now, blogging. Nowadays, i just dont feel like im in that kind of celebrations mood anymore. It seems to me like there's nothing to celebrate about- everything is coming to an end. i dont wish to leave 2007 behind and welcome 2008. I dont feel happy that the new year is coming too. I really am in the mood to celebrate anything. yes, i am unhappy. Who am i trying to kid with the cheery voice and never ending smiles? yes, i think im trying to kid my parents. For those going to their first 3 weeks,you'll be missed each day i log into my msn and realise you're not online anymore because you're schooling. for those not going to the 3 weeks thingy, you'll be some company, hopefully, that is if you're not already occupied with work.
Joel keeps forgetting that i did not apply for it. Frankly, i cant believe that i didnt too. think of me as the kiasu singaporean or what, i dont mind. the real reason why i dont wanna apply is firstly, i think Prelims is way too easy and there's no way the O's is gonna be easier than that. Besides, when taking the O's examinations, i really didnt think i can make it into the school i want. you may think that im afraid of the embarrassment and whatnot. so, No, i am not. its just if i do go, i'll have to adapt to the MJC environment and if i cant get in for my O's, i'll feel twice as disappointed and will have to re-adapt to another environment. Also, most of my friends said they wont be going, people like hui ting, rasina, gavin.. in the end? only the two girls kept to their words. Whatever happened to Gavin? Sigh. i dont blame him. i just wished he'd come straight out and say so if he's gonna apply and not lie about it and sneakily do it behind our backs.
Gotta go. i dont wanna blog anymore. this post is getting me more depressed by the minutes..