Monday, November 12, 2007
3:14 AM
happy birthday to myself.
sighsighsighsighsigh. today is my birthday. 12 november. but i dont feel happy. i thought you know,me being 16 and all, i ought to think more maturely. or act more maturely. but its like im brooding over the past again. im so stupid. stupidstupidstupid. you gave me chocolates today. 2 bars of them for my birthday. i used to receive chocolates everytime a new 26 approach. now i got 2. but i dont want your chocolates,. i wont eat them. because it reminds me too much about you. i dont like to have those memories when i cant relive them again. its meaningless. ): ): ): i've always wanted to have someone special-that someone. to celebrate my birthday with me. to share it. too bad for me. went to the reservoir just now. sat there to think over my life AGAIN. but i haven reach anything. no consensus or conclusions. sigh. my life seem to suck huhs? happy birthday to myself.