Friday, October 5, 2007
5:27 AM
Death and funeral.
hmm,so much has happened this week. i dont even know how to begin telling you. how about lets just start with i've dealt with too many blows this week? the first blow would be that my grand uncle passed away. he had pneunomia and suddenly passed away. i was sad. it was the first time i actually saw something being cremated right infront of me. i just couldnt take it, choked back my tears. this incident made me realise the fragility of life, and how we must cherish all the time and the love ones around you. i dont take anyone for granted. its just im wondering if someday i really die, without telling anyone how i feel inside me, my words not heard and stuffs, would my life be that of a wasted one? it would be a sad one because im never sought for opinions? i dont know.
the second blow would be that; MY PRELIMS RESULTS SUCKS. i got 12 for L1R5 and 8 for L1R4. but its not that. i got second in class but eleventh in the level,. i couldnt get the five hundred bucks i got every year): FUCK. he did well. he got second in the entire level. and i felt a lil pissed. not just because i lost. its because of the fact that i had wasted my studying time feeling all sad about him and he had no conscience enough to do the same to me but instead used his time "wisely" and had concentrated on his studies. why did this happen man? my family needs the 5oo bucks. and he is letting all these get to his head,. whats the point of trying to appear humble and all when you start telling people of how good you score and stuffs? its absurd and he gotta know that his subjects are easy. nevermind. people will think that im some green eyed monster if i continue to rant like this. gonna stop here. ohs anyways i went to meridian junior college today for their open house. it was uber fun. love all my friends(: hmmm too exhausted. i wanna go to bed now. goodnight and ciaos~ P.S. might not be posting for a long time to come cuz i'll be busy preparing for my o levels which is like only 2 weeks away, wish me lucks!`