Saturday, October 20, 2007
5:20 AM
approaching fear ; anxiety
hmm, im scared. quite. o level is just next week. monday- a maths already. many people tell me that it'll be over before i know it. but i really wanna do well. am i studying hard? the thing is,i dont even know. i think i am studying? i mean yes i do study but am i really good enough? am i prepared for the last hurdle in front of me? besides,time is really not with all of us. i wanna do well. maintain my results from preliminaries.
sigh. many people told me he changed. told me they dont like him. stuffs like that. i dont like to hear people talking bad about him even though we're not together. and i hate mr lee for rubbing into my plight. im sad enough things like that happen to me. yes i was dumped,but he dont have to rub into it. bloody asshole. why cant he just shut up? hmmm,today is grandma's and aunt beelan's birthday. cool right? imagine giving birth to your child on your birthday? hahas. well,my birthday is coming soon too. next month :9 12.11. stupid o level. ends on the 13th. sigh. i'll be receiving one less present. last time,the present that i always look forward to would be his. now,its gone. everything has changed. he is just a thing of the past already. let go the bygones and meet the future. bye bye past. here comes o level. wish me luck!
good luck to everyone! wish you all: all the best~ JIAYOUS :)