im feeling so terrible and lousy. today is english paper 1 prelims. i did the paper with no confidence. i dont even have a single clue on what to write. i guess the fever,sorethroat and cold got to my brain. i cant think. feeling so so bad. i sorta screwed up my english paper. wrote OOP for section 1,and may do the same for section 2. whats my problem? i want to give up on you. seriously. this may be the dunno hundredth time i told myself to do that. but i must. give up. just now you saw me face down on my table sniffing away. i wasnt crying. and you tapped my shoulder and said hi. i would rather you not do that. it is very cruel of you. to not talk to me for so long, and suddenly come over and say hi. so casually. as though nothing's wrong between us. don't you see? we can never revert back to just friends. because too much has happened. besides,you dont even wanna talk to me. these past few weeks, they made me realise that im not myself already. i've changed to someone else. i dont even know who. i feel so lousy! why is it like this? have i lost myself? my own personality?